I want to be this {Kuroo x reader}

Panic attacks for days

After the incident a week ago you have been blowing up with messages from Tenko but you finally blocked him after another hour, "hello is this Y/n Myers" the voice spoke though the phone. "Yes, who are you may i ask" you answered back. "This is Hito from the police station your mother needs to see you" he sounded serious. As much as you hated your mother you went there after practice, you walked into the gates of the jail and the police showed you to your mother, there she was she looked tired but you were even worse. 

You forgot about your uniform so your mother would notice it, "hi honey how are you?" you mother sounded so pure but yet she was so cold towards you. "I hope the family-" she paused and her eyes scanned your body. She walked over to the bars of the cell were you were mere inches away, she grabbed your collar. "Where is the uniform from?" she seethed. You acted cold towards her, "i'm on the team and you are not ruining my dream" you bit back at her.

The words you said and how you said them gave you a sense of power in some what way, "i'm going to play volleyball and i am going to own my moment in the game and if you dare step into my life i will break yours" you seethed again. 

Once you departed the jail you had a wave of doubt a heat come over you, this made you uncomfortable in your own skin. Once you made it to your own house you dropped your bag, your chest started heaving up and down, and again repeating the process. You started sweating your vision went blurry and your head was spinning, then you realised you were having a panic attack. 

This attack went on for five minutes until you could calm yourself, you decided to go to school the next day even though you didn't want to. The next day in the hall way a gikr shouted out your name "Y/n? is that you?" her voice was cheery and angelic. You turn around to see your old friends, "Hey, guys" you slightly waved with your head down playing with the sleeves of your Nekoma volleyball jacket. "How have you been?" your 'friends' walked over to you smiling. "Good, i guess" 

One of your friends had a look of sadness planted on your face, "hey, you okay?" your friends planted her hand on your shoulder with a sympathetic look. Years have gone by since you saw your old friends and they used to be your only then Sakura took them and now their diffrent again. "You look sad wanna go see the pastrol care?" she had a hint of sadness in her eye. In a heart beat you latched on her waist while tears streamed down your cheeks. "I-i have panic attacks for days" you whimpered softly.

She dragged you to the pastrol care manager but you declined, once you unlatched from the girl you walked to chemstriy class where Saukura was. "Hello there black eye" she taunted reffering to the huge bruise that was planted on yoru face around your eye, "what do you, want?" you sounded stern. "I want you to know that Tenko never loved you" she smirked crossing her arms over her chest. "Oh, thats nice i always knew that" you looked over to the lockers with yoru head down.

After chemistry you had to go to the locker rooms to change. You still had your stitched leg, arm and stomach from your mothers harsh actions that evening, as you pulled your shirt off one of the girls gasped loudly alerting the others. "W-whats wrong why are you pointing at me?" you sounded alarmed, "your stomach" she had fear struck in her eyes. You instantly had tears glaze your eyes and fought them back not wanting to draw attention and burden others if you spilled the truth. "I-it's fine" you brushed them off trying not to sound suspicious.

They shrugged but it was still in the back of their minds, you went back to changing into your uniform to start practice. After practice you were drained and tired and just wanted to collapse.

Once you got home another call from the police, "Y/n we have eased your mothers sentence she will be allowed to visit you every month" he sternly said, a sigh escaped your lips and your posture was now slumped over.

"Ok, thanks" you sighed and hung up. Once you placed your phone faced down on the marble counter a heat of anger waved over you and you picked your phone up and threw it into the wall. The thud of the phone hitting the floor died out and you started crying into your hands. "Why me?"

After your anger wave you finally died down. After a couple minutes you got a message. You picked up your surprisingly still in tact phone and it was from the police again

'Y/n your mother will be going to your next game' you read the message in yoru head and that made your day even better. You replied with a 'cool' and slammed yoru head against the cold marble bench. 

"Panic attacks for days."

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