re-write of gwendolyn macewen's "1958"
2014
was a beautiful year
where you parked yourself in bed
next to the heater
and cried for hours in your own personal hell,
you
disappointment of the century, your perfectly terrible
body
looped around the blankets, the pillows, along the
mattress, and the smell, the smell
of cheap cigarettes, and the smell
the smell
of booze and blood and depression -
O,
those guys spoke in alien tongues, and
those girls said everything with their eyes that
burned holes into your back,
them in their-
well, who has time to worry about what they're wearing
when you think they're busy worrying about you,
you
in your ratty old sweatshirt and wrinkled jeans,
those generic two year old sneakers and
that black elastic, holding up your hair
and what's left of your sanity-
Someone was always the leader of the "freaks" and
she taught you how to dismiss everything,
to wear a mask far prettier
than the skin you wore; she
was Delilah, she
was Joan of arc, she
was so sharp she pierced your soul, who went
like you
to Saint Malachy's Memorial High School where
the boys goofed off and the girls
gossiped faster than their lips could move,
where everyone had messy buns and smelled of weed
and you stared blankly, stared blankly
and realized
you had been dead for a while.
YOU ARE READING
Fancy
Poetryshe's crying again. see how her thoughts pour out of her eyes and onto the paper?