Blood Brothers- MCYT Vampire AU

Chapter 22- They Hate Me (Ft: Tubbo & Ranboo)

cw: there is a LOT of bad language in this, especially at the beeduo part, so if you're not okay with heavy swearing then... yeah
enjoy!
Tommy covered his ears with his hands, attempting to drown out or silence the voices in his head that were repeating the same 3 words- They hate you. He was not entirely convinced, but it was stressful as fuck and he hated it with a burning passion.
Get out of my head! he inwardly screamed at his intrusive thoughts, practically begging them to go away, just for a moment, so he could clear his head a little, but the voice in his head didn't listen and continued to torment him inside.

He snapped back to reality after he heard Techno saying, "Tommy? Are you alright? Hello?"
"Oh, yeah," he said, quickly removing his hands from the sides of his head and trying to ignore the repeating chant of "They hate you" that was occupying his brain at that moment. "Sorry, I zoned out. What were you saying?"
"We were talking about how beneficial it is that Dream's gone. He was nothing but a burden, that man," replied Wilbur. "Very glad he's gone, all he did was make more problems for us and take up a lot of room in the mansion- too much room, in fact. God, ever since Tommy joined, people have been coming in and out of the mansion like a hotel or something!"
Tommy glanced around uncomfortably, afraid to express his sadness at Dream's abrupt departure, and chuckled awkwardly.
"Haha, yeah," he said, before an awkward silence that lasted about a minute or so descended upon them.
"So," said Phil, "shall we go back in?"
"Wait," Tommy said. "I have to ask you guys about something..."
The four mens' interests were piqued and Wilbur said, "Yeah? What is it, Toms?"
"Well, we didn't get Ranboo back from that, did we?"
"Wait," said a startled Techno, "Ranboo isn't here? He wasn't abducted with us."
"Yeah," Tommy replied, "I know and that's the most worrying thing because I have absolutely no idea where he is. I thought he was with you guys but I just realised he... wasn't. Which poses the question, then where is he? What could he be doing? Is he in danger? Why wasn't there a note? Why could he b-"
He was interrupted by Wilbur. "Ssssh, Tommy, it's alright," he said softly. "You don't need him. They aren't a good enough friend for you anyway. Let's just go back in the mansion and forget about him- they have too many roots to humanity and memories for you to unlock your full potential with him."
"What if I don't want to reach my full potential?!" protested Tommy. "What if I just want my friend back? Who cares about potential if you're lonely? What if I don't just care about killing people? What if I care about someone?"

"Then you can leave this family," said Wilbur coldly.

The silence was only interrupted by the sounds of leaves rustling and a branch breaking as Tommy stepped back a little, reeling.
"Wh-"
"Then you can leave this family, and never return, and go live with your little friends who HATE YOU!"
Wilbur's sharp voice was dry as fuck in the cold air and his eyes were flared in anger.
"H-hate me? They don't- they don't hate me... They don't hate... me..."
With every word Tommy was quickly becoming less sure about if they really did hate him.
"...do they hate me?" he murmured sadly, looking at the ground.
"What was that?" asked a smug Wilbur.
"Do they... do they hate me?"
"Yes. Yes. You fucking betrayed one of them, and let the other one get murdered without you being there to protect him. You faced the fucking wall and didn't look at one of them while he was being kicked out forever. Of course they hate you!"
"They... do?"
"Of course!"
Wilbur's voice rang through the cold morning air as Tommy's shoulders lowered and his face drooped as he started to cry.
He couldn't help it, but everything had been so stressful lately with friends and choices and enemies and fights and just everything in general.
None of the other vampires showed any concern for the boy, Quackity had wandered off inside and Phil was simply bored while Techno had given up and gone to find Quackity.
"Oh, stop being so fucking weak. You can kill people without any remorse but if I say anything bad about your little friends that HATE YOU, you're just all weak and pathetic now? Grow the fuck up. They don't want you any more. You're better than them. Don't let them drag you down, and don't be a fucking pussy!" Wilbur exclaimed, half laughing at the ridiculousness of Tommy crying over his friends and half angry over his rebellion.
"But... I care about them! And they care about me! They can't just discard 15 years of friendship because I didn't help Tubbo with one thing and wasn't there for Ranboo, right?" Tommy argued. "That's just stupid."
"That's because they're stupid, Tommy," said Wilbur, squaring up and drawing up to his full height, towering a full 5 inches over Tommy and looking down at him patronisingly.
"They're stupid, you don't get that. You're better than them. Forget them, all they do is cause you pain, they're not the ones you want to associate with at ALL. Do you hear me?!" Wilbur said, looking down at Tommy.
There was a silence.
"Do you hear me?!"
"...yes..." said a reluctant Tommy.
"So. Will you get them off of your mind and FOCUS ON MORE IMPORTANT THINGS?" Wilbur asked.
Tommy paused for a long while, then said the most truthful answer he could come up with.
"I don't know."
He thought about it again while Wilbur seethed.
"...yet."
"Listen, you have to-" Wilbur started annoyedly, but Tommy didn't want to listen to him and ran inside before he could hear any more of the bullshit he was spouting.