Tomura Shigaraki x male reader

12.

The League was slowly preparing for an attack on UA, you and Shigaraki established your relationship. And everything seemed to be fine. But you're eaten up by an oppressive feeling of something not being right. Things was going so smoothly, it seemed that something terrible was going to happen soon. Thoughts about this had been pushing you harder and harder over the past few days, and you already felt that you couldn't cope with them alone. 

You'd had an idea to turn to Toga, but she was busy with Magne, stalking another crush. You, without hesitation, got up from the floor in your room, on which you'd been lying for two hours, and ran to Shigaraki's room, knowing for sure that he would be there. 

You knocked on the door and walked in not waiting for an answer. Shigaraki was sitting on his bed with a console in his hands (as always). He turned his head to you: 

- Why're you here?

You hesitated a little, but still answered:

- You remember what i said in the bar?

- You mean the promise?

- No, not that.

- You mean... oh... OH. Got it.

- Yeah, and i don't think it should be one-sided. If you don't mind.

- I don't, sit next to me, - he patted the spot next to his hip. You walked over to the bed and plopped down on it face down. Tomura put away the console and sat waiting. You crawled up to him and put yourhead on his thighs. Surprisingly, they turned out to be soft, although it seemed that the Leader was thin. 

- It's not a hug, but it's what i need. 

Tomura didn't answer, but put his gloves on and began stroking you hair, weaving his fingers into them and massaging your skull. You closed you eyes and almost fell asleep, but Shigaraki prevented it: 

- Did something happen?

- Why? You want to support me?

- At least i'll try.

You chuckled at that. You got up from his lap and sat down opposite him. Tomura put his hands forward, palms up. You put your palms on his. He suddenly changed the position of your hands and intertwined fingers. You started talking:

- Everything is so good. It's like i'm finally where i'm supposed to be.

- What's wrong then?

- I got a feeling that it won't last long. It's like i'm... We're gonna lose something important. And i think it's related to our mission.

- Attack on the academy doesn't seem so promising to you anymore?

- No, it's... I can't explain, - you looked down at your intertwined fingers. Tomura stroked the outer part of your palms with his thumbs. Which calmed you down a little and distracted you from the stupid thoughts that cluttered your head.

- I am confident of our success, so just trust me. We are all very strong, and if something happens, we will pull through. I won't let you die for sure.

You smiled warmly at his words, put your arms around his waist and pressed your face against his chest. Shigaraki's heart started beating faster and he gently hugged back.

- Tomura, let's lie down for a while.

Without further ado, he tightened his arms around you and fell sideways. You put your leg over Shigaraki's thigh and pressed close to him. You two froze in this position. There was tension, so you decided to start a dialogue:

- It wasn't so awkward the first time, was it? - 'Fuck, you're an idiot. Who starts a conversation like that?!' - you thought. Tomura chuckled. And now it's even more embarrassing. You'd been silent for a couple of minutes and then you got tired of it, so you blurted out:

- Let's talk about something.

- About what?

- About you, for example. Who you were before the League, what your childhood was like, maybe about a party where you were so drunk you did crazy things.
Tomura shivered, as if from cold, and didn't answer. You thought you'd upset him:

- Tomura, is everything okay?

- ...Yeah, i just don't have an interesting past.

- Oh, and what past do you have then? But if you don't want to, we can change the subject. You don't have to talk about it.

- No, it's fine. Honestly, i was a very ordinary child. I had a dog that i loved so much, and a sister.., - you felt his hands tighten on you for a second. You patted him on the back to calm him down. - And my mother was very kind, unlike my father. And there was an accident in which everyone died. After that i got to the sensei.

- The man you talk to at the bar? 

- Yes, him. He brought me up and taught me things. The League exists due to him. 

- Cool. So The League was your whim that he fulfilled? You know, like a gift, maybe.

- No, actually it was his idea.. Okay, i think i can tell you. All this, The League, missions and so on. It's all for me, that's what sensei says. He wants me to become a super-villain which no one can beat. 

- Is that what you want?

Tomura quieted down, pondering his answer. This momentary hitch was enough for you to realize that his desires were different. Shigaraki spoke more quietly than usual with poorly concealed anger: 

- I want to take revenge on people for turning away from me when i needed help. 

You moved away from him and took his face into your hands and looked straight into his eyes. You said in a weak voice:

- Listen, i'm sorry. I don't know what happened in your past, but i am sure that revenge won't heal your wounds. In my opinion your "sensei" just took advantage of your grief. What the fuck is an invincible villain?! You need help.

- He is helping me.

- He brainwashed you.

Tomura abruptly got up from the bed and went to the door to open it. He hissed:

- Get out of my room. I'm not eager to listen to your fucking pathetic attempts to denigrate sensei.

- But, Tomura..

- Get out!!

You got up from the bed and slowly walked towards the door, looking intently and pityingly at Shigaraki. He didn't even look at you, staring at the floor. As soon as you left, the door closed with a terribly loud sound, leaving ringing in your ears.