Tomura Shigaraki x male reader

20.

As Toga'd warned, you couldn't see Tomura for a few weeks. The only way to "stay in contact" with him was sleep. Every night you dreamt of him, but he was not the man you recognised (he got really buff yk). But it still worked for you.

At first, Shigaraki was standing there with his back turned to you, then there were several nights when he was just looking at you without saying a word. Unfortunately, you weren't able to move or even make a sound in those dreams.

Since the only way to see Shigaraki was in a dream, you spent more and more time sleeping, almost ignoring the real world. Fortunately or unfortunately, you had plenty of time for this. You didn't even question why nobody bothered you. Everyone was busy with their own affairs, and you weren't a part of the plan at all. 'But Toga said that even i will have no peace'. With those kind of thoughts you were laying in your bed drifting off to sleep to once again see Tomura. You really liked to think that those aren't just dreams, that he saw you too and was waiting for another meet just as much as you were.

And there you were once again sinking into the darkness. Familiar light appeared above your head, but Shiga was nowhere to be seen. For a split second you got scared that he wouldn't come in sight because usually he'd been already there when the lights'd been turned on. But not this time. The air in that space started vibrating and you heard approaching footsteps. Then there was a figure in your field of vision, hunched over as if under the weight of quilt or regret or both. Shigaraki walked over to you. He looked... miserable, to be fair. Like a hungry puppy thrown out on the street on a rainy day. Tomura sighed heavily,"You can move now".

'He's talking!' You tried to reach forward and touch Shigaraki's shoulder. And you managed to do so. "You also can talk" Tomura, understanding your confusion, gave you step by step instructions.

You decided to not waste any more time and moved on to the first question that came to your mind. "Why are you always in my dreams?" You expected any bullshit but not what he really answered. "Actually, it's you who is in my dreams. I invite you here every time you fall asleep. And you always accept it". He looked at you up and down. "You've been sleeping a lot recently. Is everything okay?"

"I just want to see you" You blurted out. "Oh, straightforward" Tomura was a bit surprised. Maybe, he'd thought that you would've forgotten about him when he'd disappeared. Maybe, it was the reason why he put you in his dreams.

An awkward silence fell upon you two. You knew what you wanted to say but kept quiet waiting for Shigaraki to make the first step. You also knew that he knew what you wanted to say and was waiting for you to make a move. "This is getting annoying. Aren't you gonna say anything to me?" You tsked and put your hands on your sides. Tomura stood there for a second thinking about something and then just grabbed your hand and rushed to the familiar door. Door to his room, where you saw him in a kid form before.

You stepped in the room but Shiga didn't let go of your hand. Instead he led you to the bed and you both sat on it opposite each other. Tomura looked discomposedly. He wanted to start a proper conversation but couldn't find any words. "Hey, i'm sorry. If you don't wanna talk we don't have to. I just... nevermind". He sighed heavily and squeezed your hand in his. "I've wanted to tell you something for a while because i couldn't hold it in any longer and you seem to actually care and listen. Not that Toga doesn't listen to me or Kurogiri doesn't baby me since my childhood. I just I don't know why but i feel more comfortable sharing this with you but if you don't want me to share-". "I'll listen to you. I want you to share". He looked up at you and in his eyes you saw gratitude as if you were the first person to ever talk to him. He was on the verge of tears but brushed them away and began telling his story.

!Okay, guys, the following paragraph contains a description of child abuse, so if you're not comfortable reading something like that please scroll down<3!

"So it all happened before i killed my whole family, i guess Toga's already told you about it. My father was very abusive and he constantly beat me up and insulted me despite of me being a little kid. And none of my family members could do anything about it because they were just as scared as me. Or maybe they loved him more then they loved me because i was a failure and always made them upset, i don't know. And so there was a moment that still haunts me till this day. I often have nightmares about it. I don't even remember what i did wrong, maybe i just got under the hot hand. But i clearly remember how furious my father was when he rushed in the room i was sitting in. Suddenly, he grabbed my forearm and threw me over his shoulder. I hit my back hard on the hardwood floor and i wasn't able to breathe for a few second that lasted like hours. That... man, i don't know how to call him, he wasn't my father anymore. He seemed to me more like a monster that can only hurt me, ruin me. And that's what he did. He grabbed me by my hair at the very roots, lifted me off the ground in one motion effortlessly and put me on my feet. I barely could stand and was ready to fall at any second. And i fell but not on my own. He gave me a slap that was so hard i felt like my cheek's skin was burning. I can't remember the rest. Only aching dull pain in my whole body. It remained with me for a few weeks during which i didn't even dare to look at my father and tried to be as inconspicuous as possible. I guess he continued hitting me even when i was already unconscious, that's why there were bruises that i don't remember getting in that moment. I hate him do much. What did i do to deserve this? I hate him. I hate him but i can't stop loving him because he's still my father and it fucking burns me from the inside. How could he be so cruel? Was i really that bad that i didn't have to do anything to get beaten up? Would he feel sorry for what he's done if he was alive?"

!End of the paragraph. For those who didn't read - Tomura's father is a piece of shit, but i guess you know that already. For those who read - you're cool (i don't know what to say to you and i'm awkward, bare with me)!

You listened to him without interrupting, and gently stroking his hand sometimes giving it a little squeeze to show that you heard him and you're here for him. "You can cry if you want, you know" You saw him trying hard to hold back tears and really wanted to make this moment easier for him. He seemed to take a note of your words and wrapped his arms around your waist, nuzzling into your chest. The next second you heard muffled sobs and your shirt got wet. 'Well, that's a lot for just one dreams'. You started carefully, as if he was made of glass which was almost true at that moment, stroking his back and buried your nose in his crown. You sat like this until Tenko completely calmed down. Both of your heads were empty, as if you'd just cleared your minds entirely. Then you felt Tenko slipping away from you and your chest tightened at the realization that you were waking up. 

"I'll see you next time, my friend".