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tae ▬ 8th Oct 6 : 20 pm

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Jungkook is very late today. For the past 3 days he has been coming here frequently and the usual he would skate for a while and I would write stories. Occasionally he would stop by and talk to me. The distance we felt as first has somehow vanished and all I could think about was his beautiful smile, the way he would flatter me every now and then. Our shoulders bumping against each other when we would walk side by side. Although it feels a bit uneasy around us and I'm worried if things which happend the other day made him uncomfortable. Maybe he just isn't into men.

"Hey sorry for being late. I actually wanted to gift you something."

He came from the other side of the park and I was soo lost into my thoughts I didn't even notice him coming. But most importantly, he got something for me ?????

"For me??" I asked him once again to re-check otheriwse I might have to go to the doctor.

"Yes, although I don't know if you would like it?"

I smiled before replying. In fact I couldn't even say anything, it's all just my thoughts which spoke in lengths whenever he did something or just him. The fact that he brought something for me, made me smile.

"So I listen to a lot of punk 90's rock songs. And I curated a little playlist for you. I hope you like it"

Like it more like love it.

He ruffled through the zips of his bag and handed me a little packet. And ad I peeked into it I saw a cd, two flowers and a chocolate.

I was about to scream but I held it in of course.

"Jungkook that is a lot, gosh you didn't have to? And what flowers are these ??"

"Wait, what do you mean ? These are red roses and pink tulips"

My eyes grew wide with fear, realising that I haven't told him about my eyes. Oh no. Oh god. My hands stopped stopped working and panic spread all over my body.

"I have to go"

Once again, I felt like my life was about to crumble right in front of me. I could hear him asking me to wait, but my feet had already started moving on its own, running. Even if i could I hear him chasing after me I knew after some time he would stop, give up, look at me and leave. This was all a house made of cards and once again I broke it. I was never gifted to keep people , more like make them stay. It wasn't their fault that they left me. It was all my fault. He was the light of my life I had begged for. The packet was still in my hands but the tears Won't stop leaving my eyes. I was swallowed by the agony and pain, the selfishness of my own deeds. I don't deserve happiness and neither do I deserve him.

As I inserted the cd inside my laptop, the first thing I read was,

"For my tiger <3"

And it played songs exquisitely filled with the emotion I long for, Love.

What have I done to deserve him.