Trap in my own Wonderland

Chapter 3: Where's the-?

As I lie down inside my transparent casket, I'm still staring blankly at the ceiling. I was thinking about all the things that had happened to me in the past, one of which was that I was a chosen candidate to be recognized as a saint and that one of them was that I was in this coffin-like state because of it.

They are still examining my performance when I was still on earth, interviewing the people I worked with, helping and ministering to, and working miracles, so I'm not officially declared a saint yet.

On this planet, as one of God's ambassadors. My responsibility was to serve His people and to be able to discover God's wonders and overcome any obstacle that God would present to His chosen saints.

One of the criteria for my selection was that I had died, which was one of the requirements. Yes, I'm dead, but it appears that I can still exist on this planet, alive or not, but only my family and Hurtz know about it.

Actually, I'm not sure why.

I'll be disqualified if the officials of the Majesterial Church find out, assuming I'm either dead or faking it.

My spirit will not decompose when it exits my body. In other words, I can simply return whenever I wish, thus explaining to me within a translucent casket. I only leave when it's time for folks to come inside the house to view one of their preferred candidates for sainthood or people who know me already. I'll be moved to Prism, a location for saints who have died, once I've declared myself a saint.

"I don't want to leave just yet...Now that I'm here, I'm..."

My belly was tenderly touched by me.

Inside, I zipped and buttoned my dark blue sleeping bag, placed earbuds on, played 'A Million Dreams' as I softly massaged my abdomen, and closed my crying eyes as I was transported once more, realizing that my surroundings were changing.

I unzip my sleeping bag as the song ends and look inside the room as if I'm in another universe...The outside of the window was full of clouds and bright white...

"It's a terrific location to be if..."

I caressed my tummy and opened the room so I can go outside for a moment.

And just like what I saw outside the window is a white place filled with clouds floating around. An endless space if I go further...

This place feels nice.

I suddenly feel the urge to go back to the room then I feel pain...

Ouch.

Now that I am inside the room, I slide back to my dark blue sleeping bag feeling my eyes grow tired.

With a gasp that I let out of my mouth, I opened my eyes...I'm inside with a lot of people, some are sitting in their wheelchairs, some were old, and some were on a white coat.

My eyes wandered on the moving chair I seem to sit on...

I don't know where I am right now. Where am I?

I heard sobs behind me, "It's going to be okay sweety."

"It will be okay ate (older sister)."

Why are they crying?

"Doc, will she be alright?"

"Don't worry ma'am she'll recover someday, I will take care of her."

"Yes doc, for her own good."

My mom then handed me to the guy I don't bother looking for, I just stared blankly...again.

"Don't worry dear just stay calm and still, this will be over soon."

He then put on his gloves and grabs some medical tools I have no knowledge of, then spread my legs out as I lie on some sort of bed for patients.

Again why am I here?

And why can't I move??? The hell!

No! Don't come any closer! No! No! No!!!!!

Wtf!!!???

I feel my legs shaking after the procedure...nurses came in and clean me up...Putting me on a wheelchair once again, presenting me to my....sh**!!!

I can't feel anything and I can't move well.

With a little bit of strength within me, I placed my right hand on my tummy...

All I thought about was...

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Where's the baby?