Dreamnap (Completed)

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TW: SELF HARM
        MENTION OF SUICIDE

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Sapnap's p.o.v

I know that I didn't like George a whole lot before but that was because he was dating Dream and it was just out of jealousy. I think now that I'm with Dream I feel bad for George. I should have never done anything that night. It's all my fault.

I go to the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror, why do I always seem to make things worse, I'm the reason Dream and George broke up and why everyone is mad at Dream. I mean yeah he did say some stupid things but if I never did anything in the first place none of this would've happened. Why am I always causing bad things to happen?

Maybe I should just kill myself. I'm useless anyway, plus who would care! I caused this damn mess!

I go downstairs and get my shoes on about to go to the nearest bridge until Dream comes down and asks where I'm going.

"I'm just going to Quackity's," I say in a panicked voice

"Oh, can I come? I need to apologize to them"

"I'd have to see if they are okay with that"

"That's fine, how long do you think it'll take for them to respond?"

"I don't know, if I mention your name they might not even respond. They're really mad at you, especially Karl"

"Oh..."

"I'll try and convince them if they say no but I can't guarantee that they would like you coming over"

"Alright, thanks Sap, I love you"

"I love you too," I say quietly in an upset voice. He didn't hear me so I guess that's a good thing.

I go to text quackity to see if I could come over since I wasn't originally going to his house. He said fine but he also said that I couldn't stay long. I then asked if Dream could come and he immediately responded with no. I tried to convince him but he wouldn't give in so I guess I can't do it today.

I go over to dream and tell him that they didn't like the idea of him coming over so he wasn't able to go with me.

"Did you try and convince them?"

"Yeah, I did try but he said that it wouldn't be a good idea"

"Ugh fine go by yourself"

I was surprised at the way he responded but told him that I would leave. His mood changed quickly as he told me to drive safely, but not too long after he seemed angry again.

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(after Sapnap left, Dreams p.o.v)

I guess i seemed mad because Sapnap left quickly as if he was in a hurry. I was a bit angry when Sapnap told me that i couldnt come but i decided i would just send a text and if i did show up they probably wouldn't listen to my apology anyway.

I open up Karl's contact first. I know that if i apologized to George first then he wouldn't believe me but if I apologized to Karl and Quackity first then maybe i have a higher chance of George accepting my apology. I really feel bad for the things ive said to george and i have a feeling that when i do apologize it may take a bit for him to believe me. I dont mind that as long as he's not mad at me anymore.

Karl

Hey Karl, I know you said that its probably not the best to come over so I figured I'd apologize over text hoping you will look at it

I know you're all going through a lot especially you and George but I really want to apologize for everything ive said and done. I regret doing the thing that night but im also glad that i did in a way

I know that sounds bad but if i said i completely regret it then id be lying again. I am happy that I am with Sapnap but I dont want George to hate me

I know ive fucked up with the thinks ive said and that I shouldn't be forgiven but I really hope you accept this apology.

I know you're going to tell me that i shouldnt apologize to you and I should apologize to George and I know this. I will do that as soon as can.

I hope you have a good day

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I copied and pasted to send to Quackity except instead of hi Karl I changed it to hi Quackity. Now its finally time to apologize to George. I didn't copy and paste this because I believe that George deserves a proper apology so I opened his contact and started to text him.

George

Hey george, i know you most likely dont want to talk to me right now and I understand. Ive apologized to both Karl and Quackity but i thought you deserved a special apology for everything

Ive said terrible things and made you upset to the point where you have thought about death

yes i know, you probably haven't told anyone but I know you and I apologize for making you question life

you are worth living and shouldnt have to deal with these thoughts but I would also like to say that i am glad that i am with Sapnap now

Im not saying that im proud of what I did that night. I wish i could turn back time and fix this all

I hope youre doing alright and again, im sorry for everything

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*sigh* "I really home he forgives me. I dont want him to be hurting and I know I made a terrible mistake" I really hope he finds someone better than me.

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IM STARTING TO FIGURE OUT A WAY TO FINISH THIS

Sorry that it took me a while to make this, my mental health hasn't been the best and ive been trying to work on it. Ive also had very little motivation

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