Wolf Girl (Book 4)

Chapter 17: Carys

Carys' POV

I pluck up the courage to look at her, I watch as her fists unclench, her veins fade away and her yellow eyes turn back to grey and fill with tears. Before she was angry, now she's heartbroken. I did this.

"But it was an accident, he was upset and-"

"Go," she opens her bedroom door, trying to get me to leave.

"No hang on a second, just listen-"

"Get out!" She screams at me. I walk past her trying one last time to explain myself, but she turns away with pure disgust in her eyes. She slams the door behind me and I hear her breakdown in tears. The pain is 10 times worse than I imagined. Matei and Emilia stand in the living room staring at me.

"I told you she'd hate me," I tell Emilia.

"She doesn't hate you! She's just in shock," Matei says.

"Shut up, this is your fault!" I scream at him, I vein up and start to feel everything building up inside of me, I turn into my wolf self and howl, I realise it's because I can't cry anymore, at least not as a human.

"You can't do that, you know it's illegal for us to transform in the city!" Matei says. I growl at him, backing him into the corner. I do the only thing I can think of, I run.

I take myself through the city, no one is out, I suppose they're all at home with their families for Christmas. I get to the park and I transform back to human, collapsing against a tree. I've ruined everything, with one little 5 second mistake. My heart aches. I reach for my phone to call Rhydian, maybe he can help me.

"She kicked me out, Rhydian," I croak.

"Are you okay? Where are you?"

"I ruined everything. I hurt her in the worst way imaginable."

"Carys, Matei called me. He feels awful about what happened, he said you'd wolfed out and bolted, I just need to know you're safe." I can hear my family's voices in the background, Maddy too.

"I'm fine," I take a deep breath, I will not go to that dark place again.

"Go back, try to explain yourself."

"Are you sure? Won't that make things worse?"

"I hate to say it but I don't think it can get worse, but it can get better."

I do as he says and soon I'm standing outside the Kafe, I see Jana come to her bedroom window. She's still crying. She looks down at me and a few minutes later she's at the front door.

"I'm not letting you spend the night out in the cold, come in." We go inside and sit down in the Kafe.

"Can I explain?"

"Matei already did, said it was his fault."

"Well, yeah but I should have stopped him."

"Why didn't you?" She's crying.

"He was upset, for a second I thought that it would just make him feel better, but when I realised what we were doing we stopped. I'm so sorry, I love you."

"It should have never happened, why did you let it happen?" She shouts.

"It was a mistake! The worst mistake I've made in my life, I love you Jana, not him!"

"I know you do, but that makes it hurt even more," she gets up, "You can sleep on the couch," she walks off. I follow her upstairs and sit on the couch. Matei and Emilia emerge from Katrina's room with their bags.