Crazy Is The Normal

Reminisce

"Another glass please" I asked the bar tender. I sat there, thinking about my conversation with Skitzo. How it made me feel so enlightened. I took another drink of my whiskey and checked my phone. Still no text. This guy better not bail and make me go and get my hands dirty.

"I have you're money, take it" I looked over and saw the guy sitting next to me. I took the envelope and slipped it in my coat pocket. "Are we done? Can I be left alone now" the guy said annoyed. "Why sure thing, just be grateful I gave you extra time or you'd have been sleeping with the worms" I snapped.

He got up and left the bar. I continued to sit there and drink. After an hour I decided it was time to go home. I left the bar, lit a cigarette and started walking. This world is so sick, full of dishonest, treacherous and evil human beings. There is no room for good, why be good? What's the point and trying to help others who don't want it?

Instead be evil, evil is all around if you just open your eyes. Now the fun part is if you're going to be evil, be the most evilish out of everyone. So they don't dare try to over power you. I took another drag off my cigarette. Well, that's somewhat of what Skitzo told me when I saw him. I ended up stopping at a bench and deciding to sit for awhile.

I finished my cigarette and put it out. I wondered how my life would've turned out if I never left my home town. Maybe I would have been a cook at the diner or would have worked at the mill or might have even had the guts to ask out Tory Doss. She was the most beautiful woman in town, all the guys wanted her.

She always declined tho, saying she was waiting for the one. My hometown was nothing fancy, it was a small mill town basically. All it had was a school, market, church and bowling alley. Everyone knew everyone in that town, everyone also knew that when the horn would blow at the mill, that's quitting time.

Sometimes I miss that. I miss the smell of the cedar, miss the quietness, miss the late night bowling tournaments they would do. I guess at the time, I just needed out of that town though. So I decided to pack up and leave in the middle of the night. Without saying a word. Head to the big city, make something of myself and make good money.

Yeah I'm making good money but the only thing I made for myself is enemies, bad reputation and fear in people when they see me. Although this was 7 years ago when I left my hometown. My presence there is probably dust, like the dust that collects on a long forgotten toy.

At that moment I felt something come down my face. I wiped the tear away and scoffed. Nows not the time to think about regrets, so I got up, lit a cigarette and headed directly home. As I walked in, I took off my coat, put the money in the lock box and relaxed in my chair.

I turned on the TV and put it on some show that was playing. I got out my phone and made an appointment to go see Skitzo again. After it was confirmed, I got up, made some food and started relaxing again. I'm supposed to go hangout with Cody and Daniel again at the strip club sometime soon.

I continued to eat my food, while watching the show. It was about some post apocalyptic world, humans fighting over land and resources. After I finished my meal I put it in the sink, lit another cigarette and enjoyed the show for the rest on the night.