The closed gate (stranger things x fem reader)

Chapter 9 - Talk With Heaven

Readers POV 

I closed my eyes and met darkness as a friend, somewhere I could no longer hurt and I could be free from everything. I sank into it letting my body go.

With a surprise my eyes shot open and I am now standing, still surrounded by darkness but the floor was wet. I'm in the void? I look around but nothing is here. Is this what it feels like to die? 

A woman then appears, she seemed familiar in a way, like we have met before but I couldn't quite put my finger on it until...

"Mom?" My voice breaks a little at the sight of her, the last time I saw her was when Papa sent her away. I was only 3.

She raised her hand and put in on my cheek, a single tear rolling down my face at her touch. "Hey buttercup," A name she always used to call me.

"Am I in heaven?" I ask. It would only make sense right? I let the darkness take me and Brenner made sure my Mom was gone.

She giggles a little as a tear also met her eye. "No buttercup you're not."

"Then what's going on?" I question confused as to everything going on.

"I have been watching over you my darling girl, all this time. I have watched you as you and your powers have grown, you're quite powerful. But you haven't quite mastered one of your powers yet," She explains to me.

"Yeah I know I can't control peoples minds yet, only make them have bad dreams," I inform her not knowing where she is going with this.

"Oh you have been lied to so many times by that wretched man, you don't have to call him Papa you can call him Brenner or monster. But he is nothing like your father." She scowls at the thought of the man. "He told you, that you can control their minds? You can only make them dream things or have nightmares my love. But your healing is what you need to master." She grabs my attention even more by the sound of this.

"But I have mastered it," I reply with full confusion meeting my face. Let's be real here, none of this makes sense.

"But you haven't, I guess that monster told you that you can't heal yourself either. But you can, you just never knew because you never tried." Her voice spoke in soft tones, soothing to hear.

"Even if I can do that, it's too late. I am too weak to do anything now." I know this is all in my head, giving me false hope. I just wanted the darkness to take me away so I can be with my Mom forever. Where I can't hurt anyone anymore.

"You're my girl, you're never too weak to do anything," She says putting her hand to my chin and giving it a small squeeze as she scrunched her nose.

"But Mom what if I am ready for it to be over? What if I just want to stay with you?" I debate.

"Well then I think you would hurt a lot of people." My mum gestures behind me where I see Eleven screaming and crying into Mike. It then flickers to Max who also had tears rolling down her face as her eyes were big red and puffy. It then flicked to Will, who held my lifeless body close to his chest as he cries a cry ,too painful to listen too.

"No. This is my fault. No matter what I do I hurt someone," I explain to my Mom. "If you have been watching over me you should known that."