The Boy I Shouldn't Love

Confessions pt. 2

*Dym's POV*

He kissed me again, but this time he didn't pull away until he was breathless. He looked at me in my eyes and breathed out "I need you." I pulled back and looked at him. I could tell he meant it too. I felt like I had just commited some horrible crime. "I have to go." I said jumping back into my car speeding off leaving him standing there dumbfounded. I drove until I couldn't drive anymore. I was exhausted, excited, scared, and felt like a bad person all at once. I pulled out my phone, and scrolled until I saw BEST BITCH. I clicked her contact name and it started ringing. She took forever to answer. "HELP ME!" I screamed into the phone. I felt like I was gonna have an anxiety attack. "Calm Down Dym, What the hell happened?" She said sounding generally concerned. I ran the story down to her and she started to laugh. "Ke'Yari! This is not the time to laugh dammit." I said a little frustrated. She laughed again and said "So, let me get this straight you're mad because the boy you have a crush on likes you back?" I know it sounded stupid but damn she didn't have to put it like that. I sighed into the phone "Yes Key. What the hell am I supposed to do?" she sucked her teeth then replied "If he likes you as much as he says he does then it shouldn't be a problem to be honest. Just give it some time Dym." I was anxious as hell. "Fine, I'll call you tomorrow night. Love that bitch." I said "Love that bitch back." she said before hanging up. I started the car back up, and drove to my house. I ran upstairs and washed up again. I put my pajamas back on and jumped in bed I had about four hours to sleep, and I was gonna get them.

*4 hours later*

I woke up and stretched while yawning. I walked in to the bathroom connected to my room and stripped of my clothes. I tunred on the shower and let the water run. I stared at myself in the mirror letting my hair fall at my shoulders. I looked crazy but not crazy enough to be ugly. I stepped in the shower and decided to wear my hair curly today. I shampooed my hair and washed the shampoo out, repeating the process. Then I washed my body 3 times and turned off the water. Stepping out, I wrapped my towel around me and walked back over to the sink. I brushed my teeth and put coconut oil in my hair. I walked into my bed room and dried off putting on my apple spice lotion. After making sure I was completely lotioned I put on my black lace victoria secret matching bra and panties. Then I slipped on my high waist jean shorts and my black crop top that said "Why are you still talking? I stopped listening." and my triple black foams. I added gold accessories and my gold head piece. It was saturday so I was going yo the mall to shop of course. Since I'm such a "spoiled brat" as my mom would say. I turned my phone on and a text message came up. "Dym please answer me. I've called a thousand times. I need to talk to you. I know you're probably pissed. I know I was wrong but I don't regret it. I meant what I said. If I have to leave Shawnnah for you I will. I want you badly.. I'm sorry please answer me." I was hesitant but eventually texted him back. "I'm leaving out now so I can't talk. I'm not mad, I just can't deal with you.. You have a girlfriend, and no I don't want you to leave her. I'm not that type of person. That's why I stormed off." He replied with in minutes. "Where are you going? I want to go And I'd rather have you Dym. And why'd you storm off? You could have just talked to me." I stared at his message and closed it. I couldn't do this right now. I grabbed my purse and car keys making my way to the door. I pulled it closed behind me and hopped in my car driving off towards the mall. I got there in about twenty minutes. I jumped out and locked my doors after grabbing my purse. I walked towards the entrance to the mall, and through the sliding doors. It was so much better than the mall where I used to live. I walked towards Michael Kors looking through the purses and watches. I wanted a Michael Kors watch badly and I was gonna get it today. I picked up a gold one. It was shiny and fit my wrist perfectly. I was walking to the cashier when someone bumped me. I turned around so fast. I was beyond pissed because they knocked the watch out of my hand and almost made me drop it on the floor. If I hadn't caught it and it broke we would have been in the parking lot fighting. "Watch what you're doing." I said with so much venom in my voice. I was now standing face to face with Shawnnah. "How about you watch it." She said back sharply. I looked over and it was none other than Davon holding her hand. I looked at him like he was supposed to say something then I realized that this was his girlfriend. What was he supposed to do? He couldn't side with me over her. "I told you the other day you aren't gonna talk to me the way you want you are not my mother and I won't allow it so either fix that shit or keep your mouth shut." I said and with that I put the watch back and stormed off. I was beyond pissed off. How could he kiss me and then be here with that.. That bitch. I walked to the food court and brought food. I buy food whenever I'm mad, sad, or any emotion for that matter. I was eating when someone tapped me on the shoulder. "Yes?" I said as I turned to face the person. "Oh it's you. What the hell do you want." I said now looking at Davon. "Look Dee, I know you're pissed at me but just goto dinner with me so I can explain. I promise I'll make all of this clear for you." He said basically begging me. "No I am not a homewrecker." I said turning back to my food. I had lost my appetite because of him. He moved so he was sitting in front of me. "Please Dym, I can't live like this. I need you to talk to me. Just agree and if I don't get my point across I'll leave you alone." He said grabbing my hand in between his. "Fine, tomorrow pick me up at 7 but I pick the place." I said smirking at him. I couldn't stay mad around him. "Thank you. I'll see you tomorrow at 7." he said as he kissed my knuckles softly sending a tingle through each one. He was smiling from ear to ear. I loved his smile so much. It was my favorite thing about him.