The Boy I Shouldn't Love

The beginning of the end

*Davon's POV*

It was 4am monday morning which meant another day of school. I slid out of bed making sure not to wake Dym. I kissed her forehead, pulled on my pants and shoes, grabbed my keys, and lightly closed the door behind me when I left out. I was racing to my house my phone had been off all night so I turned it on and checked the messages. I had a long ass text from Shawnnah cursing me the hell out, but I didn't have time to deal with that shit. I was in a good mood today and nobody was gonna kill my shit. I was finally home after about 15 minutes. I unlocked my door ran up the stairs and laid in bed to get some sleep until 6.

(6am - Monday morning)

It was 6:15 and I was fumbling out of bed to get dressed. I walked to the shower, turned it on, and hopped in. It was warm and felt so good running down my body. Normally I would rub one out before I got out but I wasn't even in a sexual mood with Dym I didn't feel like I needed sex all the time instead it was a pure feeling of enjoyment and not being aroused. Instead I was having a good time with her. Something I haven't done in a long time since I moved with my father. Living with him was straight hell I swear, but hey you gotta play your cards how they're dealt. I got out and motioned before throwing on my true religion cargo shorts, a grey polo tee, my Hermes belt, and some cool grey 9s. I was one of the cutest football playing niggas in the school and I couldn't wait for the season to start. Two more weeks and we were about to start busting niggas ass once again. But that's a story for another time. By the time I was done getting dressed it was 7:00. I grabbed my keys and my north face and hopped in my car. I dialed Dym on my car phone.

"Whaaaaaaat?" She groaned into the phone.

"Wake up beautiful, you're going to be late. And do you want a ride to hell or are you okay?" I spoke slowly so her half sleep ass could understand me.

"Ughhhhh, fuck school. And no I'm fine I'll drive. See you in a bit." She said and with that she hung up.

I kept driving until I got to school and when I did I parked on the side opposite to where I would normally park because I knew Shawnnah ass would already be there waiting for me. I had walked through the school and finally reached my locker when the first bell for class rang. All of the kids scrambled out of the hallways leaving me alone. Or so I thought, just as I closed my locker Shawnnah walked up to me and stood in my face. She looked angry as all hell.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM DAVON. I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT AND NEVER DID YOU WRONG HOW COULD YOU JUST LEAVE ME LIKE THIS?" She started yelling and then tears started to fall.

Fuck I thought to myself I messed up big time. I didn't want her to cry I just couldn't be with her anymore. She started crying more and more uncontrollably now. I couldn't even speak because I knew I was wrong for what I did and I knew I owed her an explanation but I couldn't give her one. She'd just hate me and cry even more. So I just pulled her in and let her cry on my shoulder because at this point. It was all I could really do. When she was done crying she asked if I could walk her to class and I gladly obliged. It was a walk in silence but a comfortable silence. I walked her to class and kissed her forehead in a comforting way.

"I'll always love you Shawnnah, just not the way you want me to." I told her truthfully. She bit her lip nodded and went inside her class. I was walking back towards my class when someone who seemed to be running late ran directly into me.

"Watch where you're- oh I'm sorry, let me help you up." My demeanor changed after I noticed it was a very attractive female.