I have many trials that I encountered, I've been into depressed and stressed. I also decided to just die, but I can't.
Because of the sorrow that I felt , I tried to write stories, listening musics, chatting with friends, idoling kpop , watching mukbang. I tried everything to be just happy and be satisfied.
But after to do that thing I felt empty.
Before, my dreams is to have a cellphone and headset . I want to listen music until I feel asleep and I know for sure it gives me comfort and I will be satisfied and after years I have my own cellphone, I'm happy but I figured out that I'm not still satisfied.
When I feel hungry I eat so much but after that I felt empty and not still satisfied .
When I'm sleepy in the classroom I told to myself that when I go home I will sleep to feel okay. But when I sleep and woke up I felt tired and the same time not satisfied.
As a teenager we love to bond our friends, picnic or go to beach. Your very happy with your friends,you do chatting, sharing your feelings , do pictures, eating any kind of foods, playing with them ,but when everything is done you felt empty and lonely.
There's a days also that you don't have a problems but your heart is heavy and you think too much eventhough there's nothing to be worried.
Many singers and dancers expressed their emotions or feelings through their songs and dance, and while listening their songs you can feel their sorrow. What happened to them , they're very rich, they have everything in this world, but why they still not happy?
I heard people say that they're not happy and satisfied despite of their success. And I asked myself, what happened? Why can't we feel satisfaction ? Why people don't have satisfaction? Why they feel empty despite everything that they have?
And there's someone told to me to be there church, eventhough it's virtual, I attend. And I figured out the reasons why we can't satisfied is because we don't have Jesus the Lord in our heart. Because all we think is the earthy thing,we want to feed ourselves in everything in this world but still not satisfied ,not happy.
Yes we know God , but sad to say we know Him because of our parents and the people that surrounds us, but we don't really know the REAL Jesus, we know Him but He's not in our heart , we're not the real sheep of Him.
People only think love life, money, problem of the government, cost of living, war , cheating, betraying. People is very busy in theirlives , they're busy in the things of the earth, clothes,house, education. We forgot the reason why we're here?
By the way, why are we here?
At the age of nineteen I already have my answer, I'm here to worship God the Jesus Christ, we're here to live Him , to Ask,Seek, Knock and Pray Him. Because everything in this world is just illusion and it will faded.
We're not here to ruled the world, we're here to worship Him and many people including me will never satisfied if you will not go to Him.
His path is not easy, there are many thorns , and when you decided to go to His path many people will hate and down you like what they did to Jesus.
Temptation is there, the lust is the root of the person, you can't avoid lust if you don't go to Him. Betraying, cheating, war, killing, drunker .....I can't list all the temptation the we have in this earth.
Right now I'm still learning, and I can say that His path is not easy but He will assure us that His path is the salvation of our emptiness and He will gives us satisfaction through His salvation. He is the omega, the one and only, no one comes over him. He's the Jesus our Father,the savior.
