||Realistic dreams/nightmares||

IDFK BUT STORYTIME

For my first time lucid dreaming or I think it was my 100th time idk. My first dream was when I was 12, it was scary but that's what made me wanna have more. And so I continued to have more dreams but things got weird...  The bad weird but I still like it.. but ever since I went to Church (tbh I hate that place, it makes me sleepy and they go 'blah de bablah', I probably shouldn't say that online but no one is going to see this either way.) And I went back home, the dreams never came back, my shadow friends, the lady in my dream with black hair and a white dress and no face, nice voice, very mean but nice too, I miss her, she has helped me out a lot, my fears mainly, not all of them but some like talking to ppl and stuff. It's been 1,2, or even 3 and a half years since she left my head, it was like she was living there. Everytime I needed her for some dumb question, she would appear, just like that. I haven't seen her since. I think she had a name to go by, but I honestly forgot. She also gave me an opportunity to see what she looked like when I was in DRepublic. I was with my family, I was sleeping with them, nighttime ofc, I suddenly was awake somewhere at 3am, I thought I needed to pee or something but then something told me to search up her name on my phone. I did but I couldn't look at my phone bc the images were just... Just... Scary...like I couldn't even look at it.. then time was up. I went back to sleep. She told me, time was up, I will go now, you have a dinner to go to be prepared for it. In the morning, it went exactly how she said. But what I found weird was that when I woke up I went straight to my phone and went to my history bc the tab was gone like with her name and stuff, I don't even remember deleting it or anything right after. In my history, it wasn't there at all, I tried typing her name again but I forgot her name right away. All I remember typing was "________ ghost" and hit enter. That's all. I eventually gave up trying to find it, I tried everything. Nothing worked.

On the other thing, the shadows, they were nice to talk too but they show me scary shit when I'm completely wide awake. It's made me cry once but then I felt something and out of no where, I didn't feel sad at all. It felt nice. But it didn't last very long.

It didn't last long bc my mom came home from work and it was getting dark outside plus I didn't eat anything lol. Busy being a weeb. I had chores, and stuff too plus the thing I have to live with for the rest of my life.