Unpleasant thoughts of a confused teenager.

I wanted to die but didn't.

i want to die
but their smiles
keeps on pulling me
from jumping into the fire.

i want to die
but will the pain succumb and hide?
will my suffering finally end?
where will i be sent?

i want to die
but i'm afraid there will be another life
emptiness continues to rise
will i survive?

wait,
no,
i don't wanna die
nor do i want to live
i simply want to not exist
and vanish.