Acceptance

Haunted

"You dirty little fag, how could you, get out we never want to see you again"
Jimin woke up sweat pouring from him as memories clouded his brain. He put his hands to his face expecting to feel the blood and bruises from that night, but of course they weren't there, that had happened years before.
He got up to get himself a glass of water his hand shaking.
Why did it still effect him so much, it was like it happened yesterday.
"Jimin come here, I want to show you something", his  uncle Li had said. Jimin had hesitatingly gone into the room, he always felt nervous around the man, he was broad and had a habit of staring at the younger male. His parents thought he was wonderful as he brought gifts every time he visited, his parents were always more interested in monetary gain than their own son .
His Uncle came up behind him Jimin felt his hot breath on his neck, "so Jimin you still a virgin?"
Jimin blushed red and backed away," er what did you want me to see?"
"Come on Jimin, let's have fun your parents are out let me show you how to enjoy yourself."
Jimin backed to the door,shaking his head but his uncle closed in on him. Grabbing the small boy he picked him up throwing him on the bed and started  pulling aside his shirt biting the boys pale skin painfully leaving teeth marks then started unbuckling his belt, Jimin yelled and reached out to grab anything he could, an ashtray from the bedside cabinet, he managed to pick it up and swung it at the other catching his forehead.
"You little bitch," a heavy hand slapped him causing his mouth to bleed," I was gonna go easy on you but now.....!"
Jimin went to yell again at the exact same moment they both heard the front door,"mu....!" Jiminee went to scream before a hand covered his mouth,
"Li are you there look what we bought "a voice said as footsteps came up the stairs.
Suddenly Jimin was no longer underneath his Uncle but on top straddling him, his shocked gaze took in his Uncle ripping his own shirt and smearing blood across his head as he called out," help, help me" in a fake weak voice.
The door crashed open and his parents stood there shocked, thank goodness he thought.
"He's gone mad, he tried to seduce me, he wanted money said he'd do anything, of course I said no so he hit me, am I bleeding?"
Jimins father grabbed him pulling him off the other man.
"No it was him...mum , dad!"
"You dirty little fag," His father punched him throwing him to the floor. His mother joined in, "how can you treat someone has been so kind to us and then tell those filthy lies from your dirty mouth."
"I'm telling the truth you really think I'd want someone as disgusting as him!!"
At that the Uncle groaned loudly," I'm sorry maybe we should forget this I'll stay away, ouch!" He said holding his head as if in agony.
Jimins parents eyes flashed with worry, they wouldn't be so comfortably off if Li left, why should he go it was Jimins fault.
"No he needs to be taught a lesson bringing shame on our family."
His father picked him up just to punch him again and again on his chest his face, " you dirty little fag how could you get out we never want to see you again."
He had literally been thrown down the stairs, he'd crawled to the front door, once outside his vision was blurry he struggled along the road not knowing where to go, in pain and dizzy.
He got to old Grandma Mins house and heard a voice,"Jimin, oh my god what's happened to you," just as he blacked out.
He had come to in a hospital, pain radiating through his body, grandma Min was sitting by his bed with her granddaughter Jisoo, who used to play with Jimin when they were younger but had suddenly stopped coming.
"Oh Jimin how could they do this to you,"the old lady patted his hand just as two police officers came in.
"We understand you've been assaulted, we have spoken to your family but we would like to hear from you."
"I was nearly raped by my uncle I hit him with an ashtray to get him off , he pretended I instigated it and my parents believed him," Jimin said in a monotone voice.
The policeman looked at each other as a doctor came in to check Jimin.
"So Mr Park we only have your word you didn't start it and the bruises are from your distraught parents?"
The doctor butted in," Excuse me officers but you seem to be blaming the victim here, he has numerous deep bite marks iin places they shouldn't be and heavy scratches not caused by a punch and slap, I've taken pictures and will advise Mr Park to prosecute,"
The policeman's attitude changed at this news." Oh er right, can you think why your parents would stick up for him not you?"
"Because he buys them off it's all about money with him and them."
"Well it won't be easy to prosecute as your the only witness."
"No.......he isn't ." Jisoo's voice came quietly, "he tried it with me years ago I was waiting outside Jimins house for him to get home from school he was there and called me into wait in the warm, he started touching me I pulled away he started undressing, he has a large brown birthmark under his left armpit, Jimin you unknowingly saved me that day you tried to get in the front door but he'd licked it so I ran to open it and he disappeared from the room, I was crying you asked me what was wrong and I was so scared I said I was fed up with always waiting for you and I didn't want to be your friend, I stopped coming round," Jisoo cried as she ended her story, her Grandma in tears too.
"I'm sorry Jisoo, I'm sorry you got hurt, I thought you didn't like me anymore."
The police took notes and went away, Jimin had to stay in hospital for over a week, the police had not only charged the Uncle with attempted rape but also with assault of a minor. His parents had been charged with assault too.
Jimin had been put in a hostel while awaiting the trial.
The defense attorney had tried to make Jimin the guilty one but the prosecution had the photos of the bites and scratches the bruising from his parents, Jisoo's evidence and then a written statement from the Uncles ex wife stating he had tried to molest his own children.
The Uncle was sentenced to ten years his parents a year each, all three had yelled and screamed at Jimin that he should be ashamed at the disgrace he had bought on the family, that they never wanted to see him again, his uncle making harsher threats against him.
After that Jimin had picked up everything he owned which wasn't much,he had taken half of the money from the tin his parents thought he didn't know about then said his goodbyes to Old Grandma and Jisoo, leaving that small town where everyone knew your business and going to Soeul, taking in many jobs until he was scouted by a modelling agency where he became known as Jimin hating his family name and never using it.
He kept himself to himself never interacting with others unless it was a shoot, he thought people wouldn't like him just like his parents so never got close to anyone then he couldn't get hurt, he didn't realise this gave him a mysterious air amongst others in the same work add to that his beautiful ethereal looks and he was someone everyone wanted to get to know.
Because of his past he was haunted by the hate from his own parents the lies they had said and recurring nightmares of being chased down and hurt, so he lived simply and quietly, the passion he used to have for dance and art long gone leaving an empty shell where his feelings used to be.