Acceptance

And....breathe

Jungkook nuzzled against the soft hair tickling his nose breathing in Jimins unique scent.
"Are you sniffing me?" A voice mumbled.
"Gotta problem with it?"
"Nah........you smell nice too, I like sleeping with you"
"Oh Jimin you do realise how hard it is to keep my promise to not touch you and then you say that!"
"Well you made those rules not me!" Jiminee mumbled.
He found himself rolled flat on his back Jungkooks mouth ravishing his," damn the rules" Jungkook said.
Jimins arms wrapped around Jungkooks neck, joining in the kiss wriggling against the other pleased to feel like him the other had a growing problem.
"Mmm, you little devil, so are you prepared to fix my problem?"
"I don't know should I? Or should I be the good boy you want and follow the rules?!?"
"Fuck the rules, have your way with me," Jungkook groaned .
Jimin grinned then pushed Jungkook over onto his back. Jimin stared at the handsome male then pulled his top up high, Jungkook pulling it over his head and throwing it to the floor.
Jimin trailed his fingers down Jungkooks abs then leaning down he kissed Jungkooks neck, then his collarbone sucking and leaving a mark hearing Jungkook hiss in a breath. Jimin then sucked on the others nipples nipping at the hardened buds and finding Jungkook particularly liked this. Then Jimin knelt to pull the others loose bottoms down and off then kneeling between the others legs he swooped to take the large member in, gagging a bit but controlling it as he sucked , licked and pumped the organ, more groans and gasps coming from Jungkook," oh fuck Jimin, it's too much," Jungkook gasped bending his knees and pushing up deep throating Jimin who kept up with the thrusts before," fuuuuuuuck!" Jungkook had the hardest orgasm of his life , amazing sensations travelling along his nerve endings, making him pant out his release.
Jimin swallowed everything down then pulled back for a much needed breath, grinning as he saw the others sex gazed face.smiling to himself he went to get off the bed ready to shower but was pulled back by two strong arms," oh no baby, my turn to play.
He made Jimin straddle his lap while he kissed him senseless his hands travelling down to cup Jimins butt rubbing a finger over the edge of his puckered hole while his other hand gripped Jimins dick brushing a thumb along his slit feeling the sticky pre cum, Jimin rocked in his hand liking the pressure at his butthole and the pumping on his dick then Jungkook lifted Jimin off, get on all fours baby, Jimin did so , then felt Jungkooks tongue lap that puckered hole making him squirm in pleasure, Jungkook still pumped Jimins hard on , then Jimin gasped as he felt a finger push in,"o-oh!" He gasped.
"Relax baby I'm not going to fuck you now just playing."
Jimin felt a build up of his insides at the pressure from his hole and his dick, then Jungkook started talking dirty.
"Imagine my large dick in this hole Jimin imagine how thick it will feel your tight hole will grip it so tight," he pushed another finger in hooking his fingers and finding the bundle of nerves that gave pleasure Jimin groaning in pleasure," imagine my dick touching there, can you feel it Jimin, it will be so much better when I fuck you deeply," Jimin was panting rapidly on the edge ," come for me Jimin,"
Just like that Jimin found his release, whimpering at the immense pleasure. He felt such pleasure.
Jungkook pulled away getting tissues to wipe up then lay down dragging the boy on top of him , " quick nap then up ok?" Jimin nodded his body settling easily on the other, an exhausted feeling settling on him," Jungkook?"
"Hmmm?"
"Is sex better than that?"
Jungkooks chest rumbled with laughter," go to sleep baby ok,"
"Hmm ok then."
    It was early afternoon the two had been up and dressed, Jungkook keeping Jimin occupied with different things, helping him cook some lunch, dusting his home, washing all Jimins clothes but now it was nearly time for Hobi and Jimin nervously chewed at his fingers until Jungkook pulled the abused fingers to his mouth sucking on them his eyes lustful and Jimins thoughts turning to the morning.
The doorbell ringing making him jump, jungkook answered ushering in Hobi." Hey Jimin great to see you again come here, " he hugged the boy to him making Jungkook frown but keep quiet." So maybe some coffee Kook? And where do you want to do this and how , on your own with Jungkook, whatever way puts you at ease."
Jimin looked at Jungkook then Hobi," Erm I want to do it in the spare room..., Kookie do you mind if your not in there, but stay home in case I need you?"
"Of course Jimin this is all about you and however you want it, you two go in and I'll bring the coffee in."
Ten minutes later and Jimin was sat with his hands round his coffee cup Hobi staring then," ok Jimin, tell me what happened." Jimin gulped then slowly told Hobi about his past.
"Well if I do say so your relatives are shit!"
Jimin laughed nervously.
"So why do you think al these years later you still are locked in that time space or why does it catch you off guard sometimes? The Jimin I met was happy beautiful cheerful, what changed?"
"She called me a gay fagot....., it was the same words my parents used."
"I see ....yet as you say they are just words....Jimin are you gay?"
"99% sure I am,"
"So the word gay shouldn't offend you, why do you let it?
"Because...because...., I don't know? Your right it is just a word."
"Has anyone ever really got on your nerves and you called them something either allowed or in your head?"
"Erm, yes when I was in school there was a kid who bullied others and I got mad and called him an asshole when he did it to Tae."
"And did you expect him to quiver in fear for the rest of his life because you called him that?"
"No silly it was just a name!......oh!"
"See Jimin names shouldn't hurt us, you relate to that gay and fagot because two people you thought cared about you called you it, it's not the words it's the actions that went with it, to put it bluntly , you were nearly raped by one family member then beaten and betrayed by others so your mind blends that together as one, you think 'I'll be hurt as I'm gay', it's what has been holding you back. From what you say until recently you hadn't really mixed with others?"
"Well no, they called me aloof,"
"See? Called you....another name another hang up."
"I know but I heard them they didn't know I was there."
"So what did you do?"
"Well....nothing."
"What could you have done?"
"Er....."
"How about...,I'm sorry if I seem aloof I really am shy but would like you as a friend?"
"I suppose...."
"But it's easier to be perceived aloof, people on both sides often have wrong preconceptions about others but unless someone steps forward to right the wrong nothing will ever change."
"You know listening to you I can hear how silly it sounds why have I let myself be ruled by this?"
"Because you think it's the easiest option, why fix something you didn't think was bad, hey let's shut others out so I can't get hurt, let's be aloof as they think I am, let's not socialise who knows what could happen, see holding back makes you your own captive."
Jimin gave a genuine smile, "your really good, to think I was scared about this."
"But yet you did it, you persevered deciding to take that leap into the unknown , Jimin to be honest I wondered what I might be getting into with this but the answers pretty simple, if you want your life back only you are going to make it happen grab it with both hands leave the child behind and become the man ok?"
"Thanks Hobi you have simplified everything, isn't it silly when someone else explains your life and you can see it for what it's been, it's exhausting but liberating, why didn't I do this before?"
"Because you weren't ready and now you are, ok then , I thought this was going to be a big thing loads of sessions but your too intelligent for that so what do you say we stop now and I'll come back tomorrow and we can just chat again?"
Jimin hugged the other ," thank you so much, you go see Jungkook I'm just going to wash my face."
Hobi smiled and nodded leaving the room .Jimin sat on the bed,jimin your a prize idiot, maybe Jungkook was right maybe I liked to wallow in it like some sort of comfort blanket but no more....now I can just breathe......
He yawned , I'll just lay here a minute he thought, within five minutes he was curled up asleep.
"Hobi do you think he's ok he hasn't come out yet?"
"Jungkook ive a feeling he's fallen asleep, when you let go off emotional baggage it's tiring, imagine carrying around a heavy load for years and then you drop it, you'd just want to relax get feeling back in your body, we'll that's what Jiminee is doing...., I'll come back tomorrow , just to chat about anything he wants to but seriously he's over the biggest hurdle...., see you tomorrow ," Hobi left Jungkook stared at the door to 'Jimins' room then could wait no more, opening the door he saw Jimin soundly asleep curled up, he crawled into the bed behind him and Jimin automatically turned in his sleep to curl against Jungkook who wrapped an arm around him as he too fell asleep.