2020 and 2021 was like a roller coaster ,yanoe pandemic and stuff ,people lose their jobs,family members and so much more ,I mean much more than you can imagine . Welp i've never imagined in a million years that I would get into this yanoe relationship ,it's the least thing i want to do or think of because i've always thought i'm independent and I don't need someone else in my life( probably being a cat lady until i'm old) ,but i guess there are always a good plans for every people whether you need it or not. Surviving one of the biggest or important examination in Malaysia which is the SPM @17 y/o being the first promax batch welp i would say it's not that easy,focusing on my studies in the mid of pandemic and staying sane because i kid you not ,my mental health getting worse during MCO thank god i'm okay now . I would say yeps SPM is over and i'm just chilling in the house ,helping my family, just taking a rest from everything and for once i can finally breathe without constantly worrying over nothing. Welp to say how we met it was unexpected yanoe I was on TikTok scrolling tons of vids and every Malaysian TikTok user knew this ads which is the LitMatch ads . I was curious yanoe i dunno that much about that apps but i do know that youngsters or kids nowadays used that apps welp for various of reasons ,some use that as a dating apps,anonymously making online friends,posting their pics,venting to strangers and so much more oh and some even had the audacity to ask for nudes istg . If you asked me ,welp i don't really know much about that app so the only thing that crossed in my mind would be posting memes. So i started posting random memes and my random captions.(feels like WeChat 'moments' tho iykyk😌). I've talked with different people ,trying my best to be free therapist bc it seems like all of them has their own stories and hardships in life ,up until that one day a stranger decided to texts me and there's no 'hi' or even 'hello' just straight up 'ui sabah ka?' hshsh a very interesting question. We talked bout the random things ever and surprisingly we clicked despite not knowing each other . It was a fun conversation and i can let my 'sotness' flow freely without i'm realizing it.Safe to say i'm actually comfortable talking to him and he's the first one i mean person that so shy asking for number hshs . I've seen people warning other users to not catching feelings that fast for people in online especially in LitMatch bc their so called partner cheated on them so rumours had it that LM is not the best thing or whatsoever .It's different for me tho if it's not bc of LM i wouldn't met or know this wonderful and pure person who ended up being my boyfriend. I'd say it's unexpected because to be honest i'm scared of relationship not that i'm scared of commitment but then again i realized i have my own flaws and i don't think i can be the 'best girlfriend' ,comforting people,making them happy or even open up. But everything's changed after I met him ,he taught me that it's okay to be late sometimes ,you just have to trust the process and have faith in that person. I've been making delays in our unexpected relationship even over small things like phone calls bc I can't even do that simple thing so he's been waiting for at least 3 months for us to be able to do that. He didn't lose hope in me but being positive that maybe one day i'll b able to do that and yeps it works! Throughout our relationships ,i'm glad that it's a healthy relationship,both of us shared the same goals and strive for it ,we've shared cute memes,we found out that we have similarities but differences as well. He didn't miss giving reassurance tho ,he knew that i often overthink over the smallest or simplest things but he would always reassuring me that everything's going to be fine and we just have to get through it. He also taught me about self love or body positivity as I've always been so insecure about my own body but he would reassured me that all of that doesn't really matters ,but a great personality and pure heart does.I'd say i'm comfortable with him even if sometimes it's hard for me to open up but i can see the changes in me that's slowly adapting to this new world of relationship. Never been this blessed or grateful and hopefully we can continue to be like this in the future ! <3 (honey if you read unnnnntil this way i just want to tell you that you're amazing! hehe i loveeeee youuuuu❤️)
