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1.2 let the fun begin :)

After giving my phone number to him ,i'm glad that i can make new online friend i mean a funny online friend . I've never made an online friend before bc i'm way more cautious about the 'online life' and i've been keeping my small circle of friend but hey it's not a crime to make a new friend right? I dunno how long i've been waiting a texts from him but surprisingly the 'stranger' finally texted me. When i think back of it, our conversation is funny tho,back then i mean few months ago i was so craving of mango yanoe Sabahan can relate this it's so yummy to eat that with 'sambal belacan' or even with salt,chillies or soy sauce,the sourness from the mango blends well with the spiceness and saltiness.Unfortunately I don't have any mango at that time so in order to express my craving ness I posted that on my WhatsApp's status how I'm so craving of mango at that time.All of a sudden i received a texts from that stranger,he said 'apa juga susa,kau pigi juluk laa' which means 'what's with the hassle ,you just have to pluck it' ,but boi oh boi i guess he didn't know that I don't have any mango tree to pluck around my house 😌 and yanoe what he's not helping my craving ness either,I mean rubbing salt to the wound ,he's making it worse telling me how scrumptious to eat that mango and that day I've never craved something like that before until i accidentally spilled the hot water hshs it's still funny to me tho. We don't texts that often but I still remember how he would always asked me about the SPM results (mind you KPM haven't told about it either i don't know why he asked me tho🌚) . I would always told him that i'm not sure about it so we just have to wait for the KPM to inform the students. The thing that i've always teased him would be how he's shy asking for my Instagram account,he's beating around the bush making me wondering only to realize that he's actually asking for my account ,see he's that shyboi but not just any shyboi but my shyboi now. I was so entertained by it bc I've never seen anyone that shy asking for an account and probably that's why I chose to give my account to him bc he's just way to adorable to resist. (I've never give or share my IG account to anyone before even if it's my friends hshs ) On June 10th I think every SPM promax remember this bc it's the day where we're finally be able to know our results ,5 years of studying in secondary school ,it's the moment for us to check the results after studying or even experiencing the hardships about it and also it's a memorable day for me as well bc that marks the day where he started to court me. I've never thought that someone would actually court me and unexpectedly it's from him because i don't know or even realize that he has feelings or even like me . To be honest ,i've always thought he's that funny dude to me so any romantic feelings never crossed in my mind . It was unexpected at first tho welp he started asking where i'm planning to continue my studies,my favourite colour and my birthday . In my head ,maybe he just want to know me a little bit more,that's all nothing more than that right? I was wrong. Conversations after conversations ,him being the shyboi he is,started to beat around the bush,texting in other languages like Tagalog until to the point where i have to Google translate it (and yes hun i did translate that word ). Realization hit me and I finally knew what he's talking about well he's about to court me . At that time, i'm not really sure yet,I was so scared of getting hurt or ghosted or what if it doesn't work ,basically all the negative things roaming inside my head,but something about him makes me to anticipate more about it . I don't know when is the last time i'm getting butterflies or getting all giddy when talking about love bc deep down inside me i just don't care about it anymore,so giving him permission to court me,I was finally be able to feel that again and it's all bc of his cuteness and sincerity that makes me fell for him even more even if it's just in one week. Some might say that's way too fast but sometimes love can be against all of that like time or even anything,it's all about the feels,commitment,trust and so much more. Other than his funny persona,I found out that he's an expressive person,always telling me that he loves me,motivates me to do better and of course how he always reassures me. All these qualities in him shows that it's a 'green flag'which means he's more than just a boyfriend material but a kind hearted person as well (we must protecc at all costs hehe) .Throughout the courting process, it doesn't feel like a courting but it feels like I'm already in a relationship with him ,it's like we've been together for a long time and it's the healthy one. It's different when people trying to flirt with you where you would fell for their charming or sweet words,blinded by those without even knowing it bc when it comes to him,i can feel a sense of comforts,warmth and love through his words and I can't thank him enough for that . I've shared my traumas and my stories to him and we even cried together bc of it ,that one week was so special to me since i've never expressing so much like that to anyone before but kudos to him, I can finally show the other side of me that i'm actually vulnerable ,fragile enough and not that independent as i think i was. After much considerations and long thoughts, I finally open my heart to be in relationship and said my very first 'I love you too' which i really meant it wholeheartedly and June 20th 2021 marks the day where i'm in my first relationship with him❤️.