Thoughts, Rants, etc.

update ab me!!

( november 8, 2021 )
hi i hope everyone's doing well! it's been a month i think?? since i haven't made an entry on here, im doing well and im thankful im still alive lol, im missing february a lot, i've been crying about it lately because everything's been so stressful these few months since school started, idk anything anymore tbh im just learning for the sake of it im so drained and tired, research's bugging me a lot- i feel like ripping my hair out everytime i think about it, it's making me miserable lmfao, im so close to telling my mom i want to drop out of stem because i don't fit the standards and expectations to be a stem student. but asides from that i miss feb so much february 2021 was so peaceful it was like comfort yk, i miss staying in my room all day reading, immersing myself in my imagination- forgetting the real world for a sec, i really do, but now im stuck with reality, nothing good comes out of it bit it makes me realise that i really can't just dwell in my own head forever even if it means i get to forget my problems, school is so much pressure, so much pressure into making me achieve the things i know i can't achieve. and i drifted off from aot a lot, that show is my comfort anime i know it's funny like how is it my comfort anime but ig it's probably the emotions that it made me feel is comfort, makes me feel something yk? but it seems the fandoms kinda died and idk who to talk about it anymore so yeah, lolll anywys how r yall!!