anodyne

chapter 20

it was already dark as he sat down on the bench, panting heavily. he had a metallic taste of blood in his mouth, he was craving for some water, his lungs were about to burst and every muscle in his body was burning. doyoung was nowhere to be found. the one looking for him so passionately and vigorously wasn't about to give up, he would never give up on him. however after around four hours of running from place to place, asking random people, showing them the picture of doyoung smiling to the camera like a small flower he was, made him involuntarily shed some longing tears.

he wanted to have the other back in his arms, he wanted to draw him into the never-ending hug, ruffle his hair, peck his soft cheeks, the tip of his nose, he missed his smell, his voice, his eyes as they blinked almost unnoticeably whenever their gazes met.

he sniffed, putting his head back, looking up at the night sky. his eyes were filled with tears. he tried to hold them back, he wanted to be strong. he had to be strong. there is no one else that can find doyoung, only jihoon knows so many spots, places, even the most hidden ones or some never mentioned to others. between the lovers, there were no secrets.

and yet he was here, in solitude, sitting on the bench, on the verge of crying because of helplessness. he took a phone in his hand and looked at the time. he still remembered when he found out that doyoung disappeared, and from this moment he has been doing everything to bring the younger back, but with no visible, tangible effect. he typed a short but not rushed text.

"I miss you."

he sighed and sniffed again. brushing the wet tears off his cheeks, the ones that couldn't be controlled and fell, he leaned backward. he averted his gaze back to the sky above.

"neither stars nor doyoung is here with me. I am left alone."

the feelings he had were crippling to his exhausted body and misted mind. suddenly a vague sound came from his pocket. at first, he couldn't distinguish it, the ambiance made him a little intoxicated. his hand inadvertently reached for his device, unlocking it.

here everything has changed. his eyes widened almost popping out, he felt a sensation of fresh energy going through his whole body. he jumped up instantly, never even considered messaging back, and ran with a speed of light. the lack of energy was forgotten, it was as if someone had fastened wings to his back, giving him a chance to fly. the message said "I miss you too." and to it, a picture of a night sky was attached. the night sky from a specific perspective, specific place.

the rooftop. the rooftop where they shared their first kiss.

several minutes have passed, jihoon almost crushed the door he had pushed, then ran upstairs. the way up seemed like an eternity to him, the building consisted of some floors he had to get through to finally find himself at the right spot. the cold wind fanned around him as he stood on the rooftop. his eyes rapidly looking from left to right, right to left. he made some circles but then he realized that if he kept on moving so swiftly he will never be able to notice anything, all the more the figure he was craving to see at that time.

he halted and took a deep breath. the only source of light came from the street lamps, the night sky was pitch black, the moon seemed to be fading away instead of intensifying its milky shade. at last, his eyes spotted some movement from the other side. with no hesitation, he approached the silhouette.

however, he wasn't the one getting closer to it first. before he knew he found a smaller, warm, slightly trembling body in between his arms. he felt a pang in his heart, and tightened the embrace, immersing his face in doyoung's soft hair. the other's enthralling smell touched his nostrils, tickling them lightly, the other's velvety skin felt so pleasant under jihoon's touch, all the shy and innocent kisses tasted so sweet and addictive.

as jihoon lifted doyoung the other habitually lapped his legs around the older's waist. this new feeling of proximity made them stay still, deepening in each other's bodies.

"don't do this ever again my darling."

doyoung shook his head abruptly and repeatedly.

"I would never. I missed you so badly."

here jihoon's lips instead of the answer, got busy enjoying how tender doyoung's cheeks, temples, chin, nose, lips, neck, and collarbones were. on this cold night, two bodies shared the flaming warmth and the burning love they couldn't keep locked any longer.

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