Only You [Ziam Mayne Fanfic, BoyxBoy]

Chapter 9- What are we?

Another filler chapter... Sozzy :)  Oh and it's short!! Sorry!! My muse is like commiting suicide.

^^^ Liam's P.O.V. ^^^

The house was quiet except for Zayn's soft breaths besides me, we stayed home instead of going with the movies with the lads.. Which wasn't new, we'd been going on with this whole 'friends with benefits' thing for two weeks.

I didn't even know how I felt about him anymore, he'd said he'd loved me.. Once when I'd been dying and at the interview he'd been talking about me... But I just didn't even know what he wanted! Was it sex? Cause that's what I was giving him! Like every night!

Lou and Harry were convinced we were some kind of soul mates or some bullshit, and there was a time I'd believed them.. But now?

Now I felt like I was his bitch.

I must have looked upset because I felt him nudging me a few seconds later, "What' wrong Li?"

'I love you and you use me for sex.' 'What the fuck are we anyways?' 'I'm better off with Danielle.'

Instead of any of those, I just shook my head and rolled away from him.

"Liam.. Come on. I know something's wrong."

"It's nothing Zayn, just go to sleep or something."

A small sigh sounded from behind me but I ignored it.

"Li.. Please?" he pulled me closer to him and rested his head on my shoulder, looking down at me with those gorgeous eyes of his.. No! I gotta be mad at him!

"It's nothing. Go to sleep."

He put on a puppy face and kissed my neck softly, "Please?"

What was I doing? I still loved him.. There wasn't any doubt, but I didn't want to be used for sex. It was pointless, I wasn't some whore he could pay then leave.

"What are we?? I mean, you said you loved me once, but we've never done anything besides fuck. I know we could never go official, but I mean really.. I love you but I feel like a sex slave, all you have to do is fucking hint about anything and I'm ready and willing, I thought it was going to be different after the interview but I guessed wrong. I feel like you're using me! And.. And...." I got too flustered to go on, I was shocked I'd let all that out even.

There was a short silence, his fingers nimbly played with my hair like I hadn't just said anything.

"I'm sorry for making you feel that way-"

"You're sorry? Are you kidding me?! My life's a mess and it's-"

He pressed a finger against my lips and shook his head, "Let me finish... I'm sorry for making you feel that way Li, but I've only been with a guy once, and that was hard enough without the paz following me everywhere! I got so much hate and I didn't even knew how they found out about us. And Li I'm just doing this for your own good, you tried to end your life and I couldn't have that happen again.. I do love you, but I don't want to slip... Two weeks ago I would have said differently, but I'm trying to help you, I hate when you're hurt and if I can stop it I will, no matter what I have to do."

"But-"

He smiled playfully and kissed me on the lips to shut me up, it was more of peck because not even a second later he pulled away from me.

"Go on a date with me."

His whole speach was trying to cram in my head and make sense and now he was asking me on a date? One second he's saying I'm 'unstablr' or some bullshit now he wants to take me in a date? It's what I wanted but I didn't want to go if he was snorting cocaine or something.

"Are you high?"

He let out a laugh and shook his head, "On you maybe."

"I thought it was 'Drunk' on you."

I heard him snort loudly them push me, "Whatever. I'm going to bed, pick you up at seven."

Zayn got up next to me and pressed his lips against my temple before going across the hall to his room.

Great.

I had a date with Zayn and had no fucking clue what was going on in his head.

This was going to be fun..