HAN JISUNG POV
Its so hard, having to keep everything to myself like this.
You know, it's hard for me to open up, and when I ask for help on how- they always just tell me to speak about how I feel.
But that's the thing, what do I feel?
How am I supposed to open up when I myself doesn't even know how I feel?
I'm lonely and sad, but there's something more I can't pin point.
"You're lonely? You have lovely members you can talk to!"
"You're sad, talk to me about it!"
"Are you okay?"
But all of those words of comfort just lead back to the cause of my root problems, opening up. My emotions are something I keep a secret to myself, because I have no idea how I could possibly tell anyone how I feel.
Am I afraid of rejection? Distrust? Betrayal? Disappointment?
I love the members too much, so, so much. I don't want to loose them for some pathetic emotions I have. If bottling up my emotions would help our relationship stay intact, then so be it.
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FanfictionON HOLD Based on the song "secret secret" written by the infamous Han Jisung of Stray Kids. [Verse 1: Han, I.N] I can't say anything Words just linger in my mouth Sometimes I get scared Will someone notice? I shout louder in the sound of rain I'm...
