𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓

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HAN JISUNG POV

We've been working on comebacks harder than before ever since gods menu hit the sky. We've been proud of the achievements we've achieved, and are very thankful to our fans who helped us every step of the way. Although it does seem like sunshine and rainbows, there has been some downsides lately.

I've started to feel the burden of having to sing, dance, and rap at the same time. They praise me for my vocals, but I would always see comments saying;

"Shouldn't those lines go to Jeongin?"

"Shouldn't Seungmin get the lines instead? He has too much!"

"Jisung gets all of these and Minho, Felix, and Jeongin barely get any."

"If he's singing give his rap part to Hyunjin instead then!"

Sure, those comments probably had an underline of concern for me, but to me, it just seemed like I wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough to appeal them, and so another member should've done it to satisfy the song better. I know i didn't deserve those lines, but could you compliment me a little? Tell me i've done a great job?

"I knew I could trust you with these lines Jisung!" Chan said.

Should he really entrust me with these lines though?

"Thanks."

I sat down at the studio with a huff, staring into god knows where. I can't think straight anymore, all of the burden I feel at the moment, as well as the comments i've received, it weighs me down so much.

"Hey, Can I have a request?" I asked, playing with my fingers to ease the nervousness a little.

"What is it?" He asked, not taking his eyes off the monitor.

"For the next songs, could you lessen my lines a little?" I asked, my voice soft.

"Oh sure if you want, but who would we give it to, and why?" He asked, his attention on me now.

"We for sure could give it to Minho, or Felix. Maybe Jeongin and Seungmin? I also just, felt like it?" I averted my eyes to avoid meeting his gaze, for some reason I felt uneasy.

"....Were you reading comments?" He asked after a long period of silence.

"No? You already told me to not read it before." I laughed nervously, my eyes still wandering everywhere except his.

"Hey, you can tell me. I don't bite. It's completely fine if you want to lessen your lines too, in no way is that wrong anyway!" He said with a warm smile.

"Yeah well I saw some..." I said, sighing a little.

"Like I always said, don't let negative comments get to you, they're just jealous." He said and laughed.

Jealous? Of me? I don't think anyone would want to be jealous of me.

"Right... but it's possible to lessen my lines right?" I asked, a hopeful glint in my eyes.

"Of course it is!" Chan smiled, and went back to his monitor.

I stepped out of the studio silently and exhaled the deep breath I didn't know I was holding in. I put on a small smile and continued my way to the dance practice room. Hyunjin and Minho were there, Felix was with Changbin off somewhere. Both of them smiled as I entered and greeted my presence in the room.

"Are you guys working on something? I could step out if you're busy." I asked.

"No, we were just chatting. We're bored come join us." Hyunjin said, inviting me to their little circle.

"I should work on the control I have while dancing, it needs some tweaking." Minho said as he closed his eyes and faced up. His nose to the direction of the ceiling.

"Really? I thought it was already good." I said, laughing a little bit.

"But I don't think it's good enough yet." He sighed.

"If you were truly looking for good enough you'd have to be God. I don't think anybody could reach 'good enough'. But in my standards, you're more than good enough." I said, a small smile painted on my lips.

"You think?" He replied, facing me. His bangs were slowly falling on his slightly wet forehead, and to say his looks were ethereal is an understatement.

"Of course." I said, looking away so he wouldn't see the blush on my face.

Oh yeah, another problem. I may have started developing small feelings for the two dancers present in the room. Yes we do call each other 'honey' and all, but I don't think our feelings are mutual. I mean they shouldn't like me, there's much more gorgeous people they could have, better than I would ever be. I just have some small petty feelings that I really wish would just flush out of my mind.

"Jisung?" I heard Hyunjin call out.

"Oh hm?" I said, snapping out of my trance like state.

"I've been calling you since a while ago, are you alright?"

"Yes, yes of course." I replied.

And there it goes, another lie slipping out of my dirty mouth. I'm sorry for lying to you, but I don't want to burden you with what I have in mind.

"I'm excited for the next comeback though, I really like the choreo." Hyunjin said, a smile plastered on his face.

I wish I was too, but the fear of letting everyone down is getting to me.

"So am I actually." Minho said and smiled a little. "To show off our fancy new moves."

"I'm pretty sure they'd like the choreo." Hyunjin smiled.

I'll probably mess up, again.

"What about you Hannie?" Minho asked.

"I think i'm just alright." I said, a small smile on my face.

Maybe a little less than alright?

"You know, I want to make you a centre for one of the songs. You know, maybe even just a short part." Minho said.

"Really? Im flattered." I said and chuckled.

I don't want you to regret saying that though.

"Yeah, you did it for All In and it was great." Hyunjin smiled.

I did? I did.... good?

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah it was really good. Like you owned the whole stage!" Hyunjin said laughing.

"That was the thing I admired the most out of you when we were trainees." Minho said.

"What?" I asked, a little confused.

"Your charisma on stage. Along with Chan and Changbin, you two had great stage presence." Minho said. "I lacked it before I guess, I lacked a lot- But I think it's safe to say that I improved greatly."

Improvement... did I improve? I think everything probably just stayed the same.