Loving Jordan

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"Be who you are! For your prideee!"- Tiktok

Being friends with benefits with Jordan Carter you discover some things.

Things like Jordan Carter was actually very affectionate.

Also a little clingy.

Like now, Symere was trying to play the game with his buddies, but it was kind of hard to focus.

Jordan was sitting in his lap hugging him like he was a koala bear.

His face was buried into his neck.

They have been like this for half an hour.

Jordan ubered to his apartment after his morning classes were over.

He seemed upset about something.

Jordan eventually explained that his writing teacher didn't like his report. It upset him very much.

Something Symere also discovered was that Jordan was sensitive about his writing.

He also took school serious, and didn't like failing.

You wouldn't expect this from a man who smokes constantly.

A man who always acted like he didn't care about anything.

But that was a facade.

Jordan cared about a lot of things.

Like his family, friends and his future.

Symere..

Jordan cared about him even if he doesn't voice it.

Symere sighed as he felt Jordan rubbing his back softly.

He got like this sometimes.

Sometimes Jordan liked to be held, and he liked that Symere never questioned it.

He just held him.

It's like Symere knew what he needed.

In a way Jordan knew what Symere needed.

Symere didn't grow up receiving affection.

It was so hard for him to teach himself how to express his love properly.

Watching his father beat his mother, he thought that was what love was.

When he went to live with his grandmother when he was 16, he saw that hitting was not love.

His grandfather treated his wife with respect, and showered her in physical affection. Along with affirmations.

It was a long road to unlearn the toxicity he grew up around.

He even ruined his early relationships, because he didn't know how to express himself.

He's 25 now. He's learned his lesson.