Kireme No Nai

Kami

           Leo didn't come to school as far as I knew, and he was my only anchor from having to deal with what happened. It was rainy today, and that's how I felt inside. I don't even like Parker, I thought. I'd rather go out with Leo even. And he's the human version of a soggy bagel. I tapped my cherry red hi-tops on the floor, anxious for someone to talk to me. About a week in, I thought, and I've already gotten drunk and made out in public. That, and last night I found some shifters searching for me around the complex. I was on the third floor, but I could still sense them, and it was driving me crazy.
          Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of fluffy, chocolate hair and froze up. Let's home he doesn't remember, I thought, burying my vision in my phone. He sat down just like normal. Not a word from his mouth either.

During algebra, Cameron's blonde head whipped around to look back at me. "Did you know Leo broke up with me?" she said, obviously still shocked from the occurrence.
"No I didn't...." Leo was too scared to do it a few nights ago. But also, fuck Leo.
"Yeah he was like 'I never liked you anyway." she mocked him in a low voice which was actually very good.
"He's kind of a jerk. I didn't think he'd break up with you so harshly," I said, remembering him being so scared he was going to piss his pants.
"Did he tell you he was going to break up with me?" she leaned on my desk, picking at her nail.
"I don't know, he said something like it but I didn't think he would pull through," I admitted, doodling on the side of our worksheet.
"God he just.... ugh... I hate Leo!" she whined, burying her face in her arms, covering half my papers. "He wasn't even a good boyfriend anyway."
I must've looked surprised when Cameron lifted her head up, because she immediately fixed her hair and went on to say so much shit about him.
"Yeah ok so, like, his little sister is a brat first of all, she always gives me the fucking stink eye when I'm over there and like, I didn't do anything? God hate must run in the family. Second, his bed is really soft but that's not the point. He would never let me touch any of hi posters or his plants and shit, or wear his sweatshirts like a normal boyfriend would. You know, how in movies they give their girlfriend their jacket when they're cold, and it's all warm and smells like them? Never did it. Not once."
"That's kinda weird." I braided the ends "But like, yeah he was a good kisser, and yeah he's totally hot, and yeah he gave me some pretty good sex, but that's not the point. He's really vague and too honest, where he just says stuff bluntly without even thinking about it. Like sure, he's really funny with his friends, but one on one, he just keeps making dirty jokes and comments under his breath. Oh god, and he's like, a terrible cook. One time, we tried to make cookies together, and I don't know if it's from him being blind as a bat, but those cookies were terrible. They were salty, and like, burnt but raw. And you know another thing? He never fucking introduced me to his hockey friends. Like, sure I know them all but like, he never said 'this is my girlfriend'. And that's kinda shady like was he embarrassed by me? God he just, ugh. I mean I'm kinda reluctant to be broken up."
I nodded, like I was listening. "Leo is... he's just... I don't know. He's not a good person."
"Oh my god I haven't told you, I over heard him and Jake talking about you," she said suddenly, like it was breaking news.
"What did they say?"
She leaned in and lowered her voice. I could smell her bubblegum breath. "So like, they were talking about you and Parker for some reason, and Leo was like, 'Kami won't stop calling me about him and it's so fucking annoying. And then Parker keeps going on about how pretty she is and how cute she is and goddamn, like, it's not my problem,' and I heard that and I was like 'woah Leo you're kinda salty,' but then he went on like, 'She isn't even that great anyway. All she ever does is insult me and I don't know why I even bother. She's just some slut that moved in just to grab people's attention.' and I was like, 'um okay but Kami is actually nice like?" she said it all so quickly.
"Did he really say it?" I asked. I didn't trust her very well.
"No I swear, he did say it. What happened between you and Parker?"
I sighed, and put my pencil down. "We were making out at the party on Saturday and I don't know if we're going to go out or not, it's hard to say," I admitted.
She leaned over further on my desk. "I think you should. There must be something between you guys if that happened," she said.
"Well... we were drunk and..."
"Look honey, take it from me, true emotions are brought out through alcohol. You guys wouldn't have even made a move if you didn't like him, right?"
For some reason, my mind really took in what she was saying. But the other little voice in my head, the one from my demon side, told me otherwise. She's just spewing shit to make you date him. Itll make her look good, it said. I ignored it.
"Alright, I'll talk to him at lunch, I guess," I said, picking up my pencil and drawing lightly on my notebook.
"Cool," she said, turning back around. "Tell me how it goes."