pissin' our pants yet? - Carl Grimes fanfic

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Secrets I have held in my heart,
Are harder to hide than I thought

Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours
I wanna be yours
Wanna be yours

I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

Meredith's P.O.V
I woke up in what I assume is the infirmary. There's a girl caring for me. I ask her what her  name is and it's Denise. I look down and I see a bandage on my side. I turn left. I see Carl and automatically turn back. What's gonna happen when Simon and Negan find out I'm here? God. Anywho, after I was done thinking, I see Carl start to stand and walk away. I also see Denise leave but the only one I want to talk to is Carl. I call his name and he turns his head to look at me and I think he's wondering if he wants to approach me. To help him out, I use my hand to signal him over.  I didn't think before asking him the question I've been wondering for so long.
"Carl, why have you been avoiding me?"
"Mary," He paused for a second, "if I knew, I'd tell you"
"You do know, you just don't want to tell me."
He sighed and started walking away, and despite the pain I knew I would endure, I sat up as quick as I could to get ahold of him. I quickly regretted that once the affliction hit me, but I didn't care. I need to know why he's been avoiding me so much. I know it's not because of something i did. I grasped the sleeve to his jacket, and made him come closer. I held his hand on my lap and asked him once more.
"Answer the question. Why have you been avoiding me?"
"I told you I don't know."
"Yes you do."
"Maybe I do. Why does it matter to you anyway?"
"Stop being like that. I'm not doing anything disrespectful to you. I'm asking a question I have the right to know the answer to."
"Mary, I told you I don't know."
"Carl."
"What?"
"Tell me the truth."
"I think I like you."
He started tearing up, but I'm not really sure why. "What?"
"I think I like you. I want you to be my girlfriend and I want to know you're mine and I want to cuddle with you when it's cold and I don't know why I feel like this cause I've only known you for like a week but I just- I don't want to be anywhere where you aren't and when I'm not near you I want to be here- I mean, with you, and when I AM with you all I want is to live permanently in that moment and I've never really liked a girl before cause y'know I grew up in the apocalypse but I just- I don't know. I'm sorry. Fuck. This is shit. I'm leaving."
He turned around to leave but I didn't let go of his hand I had on my lap. When he noticed, he turned back around and looked at me. 
"Carl.."
"What."
"You know we can't be together, right?" I frowned at him.
"Why not?"
"You're part of Alexandria. I'm part of the Saviors. Carl I really do like you back but you know it wouldn't work out. "
"Please."
"Carl-"
"Please. We can make it work. I know we can. I would do anything for you. Please be mine." He starts full-on sobbing.
I start running my hands through his hair, trying to calm him down.
"Carl. Please stop. Deep breaths. You'll be okay. It'll all be okay. Please stop crying. You're gonna make me cry."
He says  something I couldn't really understand. Eventually it turned to Carl crying on me, and I just let him. After around 15 minutes, I spoke up.
"Carl?"
"Yes?" He sniffles.
"I want to be your girlfriend."
His head shot up at me.
"Really?"
"Mhm."
"Oh my god."
"What?"
He didn't answer me. Instead, he just kissed me. 
UGH ILL FINISH THIS LATER IVE WRITTEN SM