Girl Talk

Okay, but are you gone take me out?

Okay, raise your hand if you are tired of the lack of romance from these nigga? Me too. I don't know why they think asking me "what you doing" every five seconds will make us fall in love? Why are you asking me "what you doing" instead of "can I take you out"? I don't know about ya, but Netlflix and chill is not a date. Hulu and chill is not a date. Amazon Prime and chill is not a date. HBO Max and chill is not a date. Starz and chill is not a date. Any streaming services and chill is not a date. Period. Chilling at all is not a date. If we were friends and we were cool like that, then it's cool to be chilling. But nigga I just met you. Please exit the premises.

I was cool with the meetups and stuff like that, but now I don't like that anymore. I want to be with someone who is genuinely into me. I want someone who will support me, love me for me, encourage, inspire me, respect me, and someone who is goal-oriented. Most importantly, I want someone who cares about my feelings. I don't want a guy who doesn't know how to plan dates. That's a massive no for me. No woman wants no man who cannot do a damn thing for them. Now I can most definitely return the energy because it's the right thing to do. I want my man to feel loved and welcome too. But niggas these days have the game messed up. I want to get all dressed up for a date. I am so tired of the tennis shoes and slippers. I don't want to go to the movies anymore! I don't want to come to your house! I want to go on an actual date, and I want to see if we can continue to see each other,

The amount of times I've been on dates and they've ghosted me right after is ridiculous. Like my confidence and self-esteem have gone down a few notches because of that. Right now, I'm not too fond of dating because I'm scared of rejection. I've never really been rejected, but over the past year, it got worse. Guys would stop talking to me, they would lose feelings for me and find someone else, they are wishy-washy about their feelings towards me, and they would put me last. The couple of guys I actually liked were such gentlemen, and now they are not so much the gentleman I thought. One stopped talking to me after three months, but he was friendly anyways. And the other one went off to Japan, he's in the military, and he became this whole new person. Because when we were spending time together, he did not act like that! Now he is on Facebook talking about how much he likes toxic stuff, and he posts wild stuff now. My heart shattered when he started posting bullshit.

I really did like him, but I guess God was like, "Military men ain't the wave." I can't ever have anything. I had a boyfriend last year, but I'm not sure why we really broke up. He just became ungrateful and started to ignore me, so I left him. He apologized and said I deserved better, but he ended up with a new girl. Wow. But at the same time, he still missed me. I miss him too, but I don't think we'll be getting back together. I don't know why he changed, but I guess I just wasn't it. I was going through it after that breakup, and I started to go on dating sites. I've met some guys, and they were all the same, bums. I thought I was getting somewhere with a guy. He was nice and sweet, but he blocked me soon after. I even thought I had a boyfriend, but he ghosted me and started to unfollow me on everything. That was just really pathetic. And from there on out, it was hard. My ex-boyfriend was posting about his new girlfriend all the time, and I felt some type of way. I took that shit personally. He never did me like that, and we've known each other since high school! Like, was he embarrassed to be with me? He initiated our relationship, and now all of a sudden, I'm not worth a post. I'm not worth meeting with your friends. I felt like shit. I wanted to go and visit him at school and shit, but I couldn't, but he and that girl were together all the time. I never got posted on national girlfriends day, but the other girl did. He even hid me from his stories when I saw them posted up on his story, and this was in January. ANd I'm still blocked, but I still see his stories though. Yeah, we still missed each other, but it wasn't the same. I didn't have him to myself anymore. . .he belonged to someone else. I don't hate him or anything; I just wish he made better decisions. I know he's going through it, but did you have to involve me?