My Psychotic Alpha

"Six"

Yoongi cried in my arms for a while before he went off to bed. He still keeps calling himself a monster but he's not. He's a mentally abused person, not a monster.
I haven't been able to sleep at all tonight. For one my arm kinda hurts and my mind won't shut up, or my wolf won't. "Go sleep with him! You'll feel better!" She yelled at me. Why would he want me to sleep with him when he's upset he hurt me? "Because it will make him feel secure!" Why must she be so loud!? I turned over in bed trying to gain some sort of comfort but stopped when I heard shouting. I sat up and opened my door listening for the shouting. It's was coming from yoongi's room. I left my room and opened his door then shut it behind me. It's dark in here but I can still see him moving around. I made it to his bed as quietly as possible.
Sitting next to him I placed my hand on his face and the hurt one on his hand. He continued to shout out "I'm sorry" and "I'm a terrible mate". It broke my heart to hear him say that. He may not be perfect but he's my mate, my responsibility. I took his head and placed it in my lap running my fingers through his hair.
He calmed down after a few minutes of me doing this. After a while he opened his eyes and stared at me.
Yoongi: what are you doing?
He asked sleepily. He's cute when he's tired.
Y/n: helping my mate. You were yelling in your sleep.
Yoongi: oh, I'm sorry. You can go now I know your uncomfortable-
Y/n: yoongi stop!
He looked at me surprised at my outburst and so was I.
Y/n: I'm not uncomfortable with you, I want to be with you but you keep making it hard for me to.
I took a breath and helped him sit up all the way.
Y/n: I came in here because I care about you, not because I have to!
He looked shocked, almost as if he's never had someone say that before.
Yoongi: you care about me?
Y/n: yes, I do!
He kissed me, right on the lips! I didn't see it coming but I am not complaining. I kissed him back trying to prove that I care for him. He pushed me back onto the bed still kissing me but harder now. I know what he wants but I think we need to wait.
I pushed him away softly looking into his drowsy eyes.
Y/n: not now, wait until after our crowning alright?
Yoongi: alright, are you staying or-
Y/n: I'm staying
He smiled hugging me close to him. His head on my chest and I played with his hair so he'd fall asleep.
After he did I followed right after him. I guess my wolf was right. "Told you!"
The next morning I woke up alone in bed but I could hear the shower running. He's in the shower. I stretched my body and sat up as the door to the bathroom opened.
Yoongi: good morning baby
Y/n: baby?
Yoongi: yes, you're my baby and I'm yours
He gave me a kiss and that's when I noticed he's shirtless with only a towel around his bottom half. The scars are more visible now that he's cleaned up. I haven't seen them since the day I met him.
Yoongi: they're from my father.
Y/n: what? He did this to you?
Yoongi: yes, if I disobeyed, showed emotion, or stopped training he'd use a whip on me.
I hugged him tight in my arms hopping I could fix his mental state. I want him to be happy and safe for others and himself.
Y/n: that's never gonna happen again! Do you understand?
Yoongi: I know it's not, he's dead
The way he said that was like it was a normal conversation. Not like he lost his father or anything.
Y/n: get changed, I'll meet you for breakfast.
I gave him a quick kiss and went downstairs to see his mom, our mom.
Luna: good morning honey! How'd you sleep?
Y/n: great actually
Luna: that's good, I saw you come out of Yoongi's room. Did you sleep in there?
I choked on my juice making her laugh.
Y/n: yes, he's was having a hard time sleeping so I helped him.
Luna: I'm glad he has you. I can already see the changes in him. They are little but they're there.
I was confused because I don't see a difference except he's more emotional.  Yoongi came downstairs amd sat next to me. I smiled as he gave me a kiss then started eating. Maybe, I was wrong to judge him so soon.