little bit of love ➸ showki

07;

"What the fuck are you doing?" I didn't know that Shownu came after me when I excuse myself that I have to go to the comfort room. I just finished to wash my hand and face that I thought I can finally breath peace here for awhile.

"Should I be the one to asked you that?" Kihyun get yourself together. Just be casual to him.

"Fuck. Of all the place you should work with. Why it is with Minhyuk?? Do you know I hate that guy the most?" Again Shownu showing his usual aggressive self.

"Let me remind you. Things between us ended already. And even I am still dating you. You can just boss me around and tell what should I do with my life"

"I don't care. I cant stand that guy and knowing you are now working with him. Are you just stupid?" I don't understand. I know he would feel bad after he found out but its not even my plan at the first place. Besides he had nothing to me anymore.

"You are the one who stupid here. I have nothing to do with the things between you and Minhyuk. This is my life. I need to work so I can still live this life" if he only knew that I don't want to take this kind of job but what can I do?? My parents needs money.. and I need money to live.

"Then.. come back to  me.. Work for me again" his tone switch to soft and sound luring me. He even reached my hand.

"You know things are not that same anymore right? Shownu I let you go so please let me go" I took off his hand and I look away.

"What if I told you. I don't want to let you go. What if I take back my words?" scrowing back to him and went lost for  a bit. Did I just heard that?

"Shownu its been said and done. Also you had a girlfriend right??? The last one I saw from your place?" is this one of this dumb games. I'm literally not on it.

"Ah?? That? She had a good future in the industry. She did so well right?" what the hell???

"What do you mean??? No you did not?!"

"I kinda hired her. Nothing going between me and her" this jerk..

"And why do you think you have to do that? You think I will feel jealous???"

"Yeah you're right! I though I can have you back because of that! I still don't understand why do you have to break up with me and resigned to your work at the same time?" his face look proud like he did something good.

"My God Shownu?!? Should I really slap you the bitter truth or what?? Should I really tell you that I am not happy anymore?!?! That I don't feel the same thing I felt in our first phase of our relationship??" I blow it out and I know I might regret it but thats how I really felt.

"So I was wrong in the first place? Did I make you mad or worst.. uncomfortable???" he try to make sense but its me I am not making sense.

"I think I was the worst.. I thought I was okay to be a hidden. Your secret lover, I thought also its thrilling. But what I realize, am I really that worth?"

"One last question, did you still love me??"

"Even if I said yes. Things wont change or go back to where we came from. I'm so sorry Shownu. But still I want you to be more successful and shine just the way I met you before"

Now I feel my heart throbbing in pain. I didn't expect that I am going to tell all of those to him. I thought as I will forget my feelings for him, I thought I'll buried all those with them.

I left him there and go back to the room. I immediately talk to Minhyuk and told him that I am heading off here. I didn't wait his response and I dragged myself quickly to that place.

Our driver saw me approaching to him. He is waiting outside in van.

"Its still on going. I'm heading off first. Please wait for Minhyuk and drove him home" He nodded.

"You want me to take you home?" I shook my head.

"No. I'll book a cab" was about to walk to the pavement area..

"Kihyun!!!" the way he is panting looks like he ran after me.

"What??" I dont care anymore. If I lose my job here or what.

"Whats wrong?? You dont look good either" now he is acting concern?? After he made me a look piece of stupid there.

"You should have told me!!! You shouldve told me that you are dragging me to your college reunion?? What am I going to do there??? I dont know those people!"

"You knew some of them. Me, Hyungwon and Shownu right?" my patience to this guy..

"And if so???? You think I am belong there??? Also not because I am your stupid assistant. You'll treat me like I am your slave or what? Consider my feelings especially my consent!" I am frustrated. I feel humiliated, ashamed, stupid in front to Shownu.

When my booked cab already came. I immediately get inside and not even bother to give Minhyuk look. I am still upset to him.

While on my way. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I thought it will be Minhyuk but it was a message came from Shownu.

Shownu   
i realized so many things
after you open yourself
to me. also it sparks me
a hope. you still love me.
okay.. then ill make you
head over heals to me
again. ill earn you slowly
but surely this time
just wait..

I shut down my phone after reading that and felt nervous. Isnt he drunk right???

Shownu, letting each other go are the best for the both of us. Why are you so stubborn?

"Your face lighten up your face after checking your phone. You look more better when you are smiling Sir" I was stunned for a moment when the driver of the cab suddenly spoke over me. As if we were close..  wait???

Did I smile??????