True love lasts forever

April's Worry

April's Point of view

The dream beavers are evil little things. They steal your soul and your life while scaring you to death and you can't wake up. No matter how hard you try. Casey has successfully ruined the spell book and the guys are waking up. All but one. Leo wakes up and glances around to make sure the danger is gone. Raph opens his emerald eyes and glances around at his brothers before settling on Donnie. Mikey opens his baby blue orbs, rubbing them tiredly. We all glance at Donnie's still form, my blood slowly turning ice cold at the possibility that he's not gonna get up. I kneel next to him, pressing two shaking fingers to the artery in his neck but not feeling any vibration dictating his heart beat. I figure I'm doing it wrong, so I try to check his wrist, but still nothing. I don't feel his breath on my hand when I place it in front of his mouth either. "He's not breathing." I start to do compressions and Raph breathes into his younger brother for me. After ten minutes of nothing, Casey announces him gone and Leo pulls me into a hug as I sob into him. Raph is completely adament over digging the grave for his little brother. We all gather around and say things that we remember about Donnie. "I was too tough on him. I wasn't that close to him either because of it." Raph grumbles out, trying not to cry. Raph has always been the tough one, never one to show any emotion besides worry or anger. Leo steps up next. "You were the best brother we could ask for. You've helped me when I broke the microwave or I just needed to spout my feelings to you or if I just wanted somebody to meditate with me." Mikey goes next. "You were the awesomest brother I could have. You saved me from Raph many times and you would put your work aside just to play video games with me or to help me with a prank or just fix how I had something set up so it would hit the target. I'm sorry I kept going into your lab and messing with your stuff and breaking things. I'm sorry for messing with the retromutagen stuff that one time." My turn was up and I knelt next to the head stone, ignoring the guys looking at me. "Donnie, I loved you sooo much. I know we've both been dying to tell each other, then almost getting there and somehow talking ourselves out of it. I'm sorry I said that I hated you when my dad got mutated. I never did really hate you. I just wanted something or someone to blame and you were the closest thing to me and that was so not fair. I love you so so much Don. You've always been there for me when I had a bad day or needed to study or just to talk. I'm gonna miss you Donnie. You're more than just a brother. You're my protector, you're my mutant. My Donnie."

I sit up in my bed and rub my eyes. Flashes of my dream run all around my head like a broken record. The scene of me and Raph doing CPR keeps playing itself. Tears run down my face. Was it a dream? What if it was real? I can't just sit here and never know, I get up and quietly pad down to Donnie's bedroom slash lab. He's lying on his bed, his staff next to the bed and his bedside lamp on. I can't tell if he's breathing or not from the blanket covering him. I sneak over and kneel next to the bed, cautiously pressing two finger to his neck. Before I can even make contact with his skin, Donnie's hand suddenly comes up and catches my wrist in his grip. My eyes widen as I glance into his tired brown ones. Realization dawns over his entire face before he lets me go an scrubs his face with both of his palms. "ugh! What time izzit?" He looks at me again. "April? What are you doing in here? Not that I want you to go. I just mean that it's like..." He glances at the digital alarm clock. "Almost 3:30 in the morning. Are you ok?" I nod my head. "Yeah, I was just checking on you. You know, just in case you..." "I didn't stay up too late working. At least for me, I'm ok....wait. Y-you were going for my carotid artery...You...were checking to see if I was breathing, weren't you?" I can't maintain eye contact with him anymoreand just look to the floor, playing with my hands. Donnie's hand under my chin makes me look up at him, tears start running down my face again. He opens his arms wide. "Come 'ere." He says softly. I can't deny myself of this anymore, I bury my face into his chest and cry my eyes out listening to his heart beating. He rubs my back and whisper's reassurances in my ear. "I've got you April. You're ok, I'm ok. Everything's alright." My tears finally slow down a little bit. I'm not sure why, but Donnie's beating hear just comforts me somehow. "You died, you know." I whisper, tears flowing again. Donnie glances at me and I scoot closer to him.

"What? How?"

"Damn Dream Beavers. Raph and I had to do CPR on you. I eventually had to take over for him. You were practically dying in my arms and I couldn't do anything about it. My dream twisted everything up. We were back there and we did CPR, but we couldn't get you breathing again. We tried for 10 minutes, but Casey said you were gone. Raph wanted to do the digging and make the tombstone, so we let him. We all circled around and told our favorite things about you. Raph wished he was nicer. Leo was thankful that you helped, so was Mikey. He even apologized for the retromutagen. I..." I couldn't finish as the tears got to be too much again. "You don't have to go on if you don't want to." He barely breathes in my ear. "I...I talked about h-how we never get the c-courage to tal-talk to each other." I place both of my hands on either side of his face, looking into his warm brown wyes that so often remind me of hot chocolate on a cold day. "Donnie, we never know when it will be too late. I love you. I have loved you for so so long and I start to tell myself to just tell you, but I end up just talking myself out of it...." I don't get a chance to continue as I feel Donnie's lips land on mine. They aren't as cold as I had pictured for a turtle. They're warm and loving, just like my Donnie. He pulls back first. "I-I'm s-" I sush him with another kiss. "If you say you're sorry, I will hit you in the balls with your staff." He smiles, revealing his cute gap in his teeth, then starts laughing softly but kind of hysterically. Both of us are picturing me hitting him with his weapon while he's squirmin on the floor. "I love you April." He smiles. "I love you too."

Neither of us notice the three other turtles standing in the doorway. Leo blushes and looks away. Mikey whispers. "Booyakasha! They are oficially Apriltello now." Raph tries not to gag, but crosses his arms, smirking. "About fucking time." Leo drags his older and baby brothers away by the backs of their shells. "Come one, let's give the love birds some privacy."

"April, I'm always gonna be here for you ok?" I nod my head. "C-can I stay here tonight." "Absolutely. You never have to ask. Even if I'm asleep. Here, I do have and idea though." He crabs a bracelet thing out of his drawer. "Tony gave me an idea with this. He's got this bracelete that can call his suit to him. I"ve made one like it, except it reads vital signs and send it to every T-phone. You just click the heart on the home page and click on the person's name like this and it will read it. See, it shows my heart rate, blood pressure, oxygen intake and outake, my blood sugar in case it gets too low again, and it will beep loud enough for you to hear if something is wrong. If you're not already on the vital part, then the person's name will be cricled by a red blinking line." I look up at my favorite person in the world. "Thanks Donnie." I yawn. "No problem. Let's go back to bed, Leo's gonna drag us out of bed in three hours for training." I lie down, listening to his heart until I drift off to sleep.