this book is for 18+ only ❥
beomgyu is just nothing for yeonjun.
he will never have a place in yeonjun's heart.
because they are just friends...
friends with benefits.
and yeonjun hasn't moved on from his ex girlfriend yet.
but even so, beomgyu stil...
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beomgyu was lying on the bed next to him was yeonjun. they are in the older's room, beomgyu hasn't been here for a few weeks. yeonjun's room smelled like alcohol, smoke and strawberries, a smell that beomgyu had learned to love.
"beomgyu,"
"yes hyung?"
"i've been so lonely these past few days. my chest hurts every time i think that you're with hyunjin. that hyunjin does things that i used to do to you."
beomgyu felt his heart ache, he didn't want to see yeonjun hurt. because yeonjun is his world, his life, yeonjun is his everything. so if he is sad beomgyu is also sad and if he is hurt beomgyu is also hurting.
"sleep first hyung, we'll talk about it tomorrow." beomgyu said while caressing yeonjun's cheek.
"no, darling. i'm a horrible person, i just used you for sex, because i miss my ex-girlfriend. i just want to forget her even for a moment. so i kissed you that night."
beomgyu was tired of crying, and even though he wanted to cry, no tears came out of his eyes.
"i'm sorry gyu. because i tried to ignore your feelings, until you feel like you're just being used." yeonjun chuckled bitterly, tears dripping. "i know, i know that apologizing isn't enough. i know i don't deserve you anymore. but fuck, i miss you, i fucking miss you."
yeonjun put his hand on beomgyu's head and caressed it.
"i felt so shitty when i saw you and hyunjin earlier in the arcade. you look so happy he got the pink unicorn."
beomgyu's doe eyes stared straight at yeonjun, mouth agape.
"you're also in the arcade? who's with you?"
"just wooyoung and changbin."
"oh," beomgyu nodded.
"before i saw you both earlier," yeonjun got up from his bed and went to his closet, he took a big bear. "i bought this while i was thinking of you. wooyoung and changbin even scolded me, they said someone might recognize us and this big bear hanging on my shoulder was too distracting for the people at the mall. but i just shrugged and i ignored them."
there was a small smile formed on beomgyu's lips while staring at the bear. yeonjun saw it and placed the bear next to the younger.
"do you like it?"
"i love it, hyung. thank you."
"heh, cute." beomgyu blushes.
yeonjun sat on the floor and fell silent, his blank eyes staring at the ceiling, beomgyu was just watching him. they let themselves slip into a comfortable silence.
a moment later yeonjun broke the silence. he stood up and crawled towards beomgyu, he hugged the younger.
they stared at each other, both their eyes red and tired. beomgyu smiled at him then it turned into pout.
"i just realized that you are the only reason why i feel loved. when the nights you are not here by my side, i feel incomplete. i keep missing you." he put his thumb on beomgyu's lips, caressing it.
"if possible i want to apologize to you every day. because i made you feel like you weren't enough. i treated you like an object. i only call you when i need you. you don't deserve all that darling. i'm so fucking sorry, i'm such a loser." he kissed beomgyu on the forehead. beomgyu closes his eyes, smiling, feeling yeonjun's lips.
"everyday i spend with you, becomes new best day of my life. you helped me to stay strong, you changed my life. you deserve the whole world… no, no, you deserve the whole universe, darling. you're myuniverse."
