You're Seeing Things Again [GerIta Hetalia || APH]

Chapter 22: Lets Work It Out

Tw: talks of self harm.

Feliciano's eyes widened. How did Ludwig know..? Surely he wasn't crying was he? No, Lovino would have said something.

He looked up to Ludwig, who shot back a look of worry. Feliciano now felt shame for what he did moment earlier. It's like he failed Ludwig. But more importantly, he had failed himself.

They still stared at eachother. Feliciano's face suddenly scrunched up and tears started to slowly fall. He made sure to stay silent as he cried. He hugged Ludwig and pushed his face into the larger male's chest.

Ludwig hugged back and whispered into his ear, "It'll be okay..." he didn't know what happened, but he assured him it was fine.

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After sometime of the movie, Ludwig began to feel tired. It wasn't late but he felt so drowsy. Antonio and Lovino were the only ones actually paying attention. Feliciano loosened his grip on Ludwig after a good bit of crying. After that he didn't move or speak, so he likely fell asleep.

Ludwig pushed Feliciano all the way on his lap before getting up carefully. Getting up was hard, but he managed to do it without waking Feli, not that he was a light sleeper anyway.

Antonio and Lovino looked over, but immediately went back to the movie. Ludwig began to walk to the stairs, then up them. He had his arm around Feliciano's waist to hold him up, along as holding his neck like a mother would to a baby :(

He went to Feli's room and pulled back the covers on his bed. He laid the Italian down as he examined him. He looked so peaceful, yet at the same time like he had so much worry. Ludwig hoped he would feel better;he looked so hurt.

Ludwig sighed softly. He left to use the bathroom and headed to the okie right by Feli's room. He opened the door and looked on the floor. There was some trash so he picked it up and went to throw it away.

When he opened the trash can he got a bit alarmed. There were bloody tissues. Not just, a little. Like.. a LOT. He looked around on the floor, hoping there was no blood on the floor.

Ludwig felt almost sick when he saw the razor on the floor. He was basically frozen. He bent down and picked it up. It was dull and bloody. This surely didn't look like an accident. If it was, Feliciano would have told him, telling him to help.

Ludwig tried not to come to a bad conclusion, but all he could think was that Feliciano, if fact, took the razor too his own skin with negative intent. The blood wasn't dry, so it had to be in the past hour or two.

Ludwig basically dropped it where it was.
Jesus...

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Sunshine poured into the bedroom, hitting Feliciano in the eyes and forcing him awake. He met the day with a load groan then a wince as he moved around. He moved back the covers and looked at his thigh. It came to him what he did again. Fuck

He stood limped as he pushed himself out of bed. He looked to his table beside him bed and noticed a slip of paper and a red sharpie, along with wellness(?) items. There were bandages and and a bottle of hydrogen peroxide.

Feliciano picked up the notes with much confusion. He read it: "I know yesterday was a terrible night. I'm so sorry. I wish I never left. I did notice your attitude and a certain tool left in the bathroom. It didn't take long for me to put 2 and 2 together. I don't know much about self harm or anything of the sort but a friend told me once the red sharpie method works. Rather than using a blade, the sharpie substitutes as a cut and blood. I hope this helps and you can always talk to me. I just felt writing a note would server better than me babbling incoherently. Meet me downstairs when you're ready." A small smiley face was left along with Ludwig's signature with a heart.

OOPS NOT ME BEING GONE.
In all seriousness I did NOT mean to be gone for this long. Homework has been a bitch! Along with volleyball and basketball, this shit never stops!! I started thinking about this last night and I was like: "huh... you know, Jasem: it would be cool if you ACTUALLY updates this lol". Again I apologize! I'll try to be more active in posting haha.