forever? | sunghoon

three

dizzy, dizzy, dizzy and crazy!

i did become too wild and uncontrollable!

chugging a bottle of tequila like a pro, ignoring the burning pain inside my throat and enjoy the bitterness.

" yo! sunghoon got wasted! " jay says laughing like a maniac.

i laugh along. i don't know where is the joke but when you're drunk, craziness take over you.

" your fangs is so sexy! "

" i take that as compliment, ladies~ " i says and wink.

i didn't flirt. drunkiness makes me flirt. and i just love to be myself, who is not myself right now.

i feel so free.

a freedom that i'll never forget,

thanks to jay.

" shake that booty for daddy, ladies! " i yelled excitedly to the strippers.

everyone was cheering.

cheering for me.

and i love it.

" yes, daddy~ " one of the strippers response.

they started to dance sexily on the pole.

" fuck it! you, ladies are so sexy! " i yells and smirk.

" thank you, daddy! " they says, smiling sexily.

" isn't he too drunk? " sunoo ask hanbin hyung.

" nah. i've seen worse. this is just a starting. he'll go crazier and wilder, just see. " hanbin says, looking at wasted sunghoon and shook his head.

" baby~ i'm hard as hell! " k whisper in hanbin's ear.

" let's go do ' it ' in bathroom. " hanbin says, smirking and drag his boyfriend to a near bathroom.

" you want round three? " ni-ki ask, smirking. licking sunoo's neck flirtly.

" my ass still burning! and stop! it tickles! " sunoo push his boyfriend away and went to somewhere else.

" yah! where are you going? " ni-ki follow sunoo from behind.

" you really enjoy this party huh? " jay say, smirking.

" hell yeah! " i cheers.

then, i saw jake. dancing alone. he looks so fine but why is no one dancing or at least talking with him? because he rejected heeseung hyung?

tch, world. what a ruined people.

i realized that i've zoned out for a long time.

thinking about myself.

i'm just a boy with a brokenheart,

enjoying this night like a fool person.

yes, i am a fool.

fool for love,

fool for a friendship,

fool for myself,

a fool who still live in this world,

a fool who live with loneliness,

a fool for everything.

how can i be this deep?

is it from memories or from

my heart?

" jake... " i whispered.

jake, sim jake, sim jaeyun, 18, the one who stole my heart. from Brisbane, Australia.

we never talked but i always stalked him.

' what is he doing? what happened to him? why aren't he smiling like always? what did he eat for recess? is he healthy? is he okay? '

always playing in my mind when i saw him. not trying to be a creep but i'm just worried or...maybe just overprotective? i need to admit it :)

as long he is okay, i'm okay. ( eww... it makes me cringe but idc hehe...)

" sunghoon? you good? " jay ask, waving his hand in front of my face.

" yeah...just my head is spinnin' " i says, and drink more.

i'm getting drunk-dazed.

drunk for jake and

dazed for this world.

:)