laying on my bed,
doing nothing. just watching the white ceiling.
don't get me wrong,
i'm just thinking about my day.
i watch the sunset alone, at the beach.
how sad...
jake broke my heart,
brutally.
i want to cry but nothing come out from my eyes.
no tears, no sob, just a numb feeling.
*knock,knock*
someone barge in my room. and it's jay.
he comes in with a tray full of food, mostly my favorite food. he put it at the table and lay beside me.
" hey, hoon... " he speak up, looking at the ceiling too.
" yes. " i response.
" i'm sorry, i don't know your feelings. " he started crying.
" i'm such a bad f..friend. " he sobs.
oh, jay...you're not. you're the bestest friend i ever had! i swear to God!
" why are you crying, jay? this is not you! " i joke.
" i didn't know that you're in pain and i don't even try hard to let you out of it. " he cries.
you did try hard to let me out of it. you put your effort to make me happy. i appreciate your hard work, jay.
i turn to my side, facing his side profile.
" hey, don't cry... " i wipe his tears.
although, he can't feel me.
i feel him, his warm, his mixed feelings.
right.
it just my soul laying here with him.
i lose to myself.
i let myself drown.
sea feels cold and lonely, just like me.
and i don't regret it.
" alright, jay. i gotta go. " i mumbled softly.
his tears don't stop flowing. his sob become louder.
why do i hesitate to go?
oh, yeah. i have something to tell him before i go.
" hey, jay...
i love you, forever. "
:)
–the end–
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forever? | sunghoon
Fanfiction-unrequired love is real- warning⚠️ : - contains suicidal thoughts - swearing - boyxboy - (maybe a little bit traumatizing) - just a little sad :) don't worry - may cause heart pain inside haha that's it. this is my first complete book! don't forg...
