Life

Lets see

I had been in Boston for a few weeks now and it had been so great. Chris had taken me on a tour of Boston with the kids and it was amazing. So peaceful.
The boys really loved staying with Chris, I had gotten them into the same school as Ethan thanks to Carly and they were loving every minute of it. I knew staying in Boston wasn't permanent but they still had to go to school.
I had met Chris entire family, his mum Lisa was so lovely and adored the boys so much. His whole family were so nice and I couldn't believe how welcoming they had been towards me.
Today was the Super Bowl and Chris was hosting a big cook out to watch the game. I had my eagles jersey on and walked into the kitchen, the Evans family looked at me and boo'd in a joking way of course and then out walked my little eagle fans and then they couldn't help but awwwww which of coursed I laughed at.
All the food had been cooked and grilled and was on the table ready to eat, there were beers flowing and everyone was having a great time. The patriots were winning of course and although they weren't my team I was happy that Chris was happy.
I was in the kitchen cleaning up when Lisa came in with some empty plates,
"Where do you want these darling?"
"Oh just pop them on the side please and I'll give them a swill before they go in dishwasher"
"You know I don't think I ever seen Chris so happy before"
"Yeah he really loves when his team wins doesn't he"
"That's not what I meant honey"
"What did you mean?"
"Since meeting you, he has always had this smile on his face, but now he is even happier because you and the boys are here with him, he loves those boys"
"And they love him....he has been so amazing with them and with me. He has helped me so much and I don't know how to repay him"
"Chris did all of those things because he cares for you sugar, he told me what happened in LA and I got so worried....."
I didn't let her finish I jumped in "I promise Lisa I won't let any harm come to your son, I promise I won't let his reputation be tarnished in anyway, this is my problem not his and I offered to quit but he....." but I could finish she pulled me into a huge hug and squeezed me tight, I don't know why but it made me so emotional to have her hold me like that....hold me like a mother should hold a child....she held me like I had never been held by my own mother.....I started to cry and she stroked my back and my hair and whispered to me "that's not what I was going to say....I was going to say I was so worried for you and your children, no one deserve this and least of all you, you are such a sweet and amazing women and I think your exactly what my son needs"
I pulled away from the hug wiping my eyes " Oh no! Lisa me and Chris we aren't together like that.....he would never.....he wouldn't be.....not with me"
"I know you don't see your self for who you truly are....how beautiful you are inside and out but trust me when I say my son is very much in love with you and your children" and with that she walked back into the living room. I stood there in shock, had she really just said that Chris was in love with me. That couldn't be true there was no way he would think of me like that.
I know he loved Jensen and Jake but not me not in a romantic way. She was just seeing a very concerned friend taking care of a friend in need thats all.

I went out into the back garden and dodger followed....I don't know how long I was out there but I started to get really cold, just as I was going to go back inside, Chris came out of the door.

"Hey, I wondered where you had gone? Boys were asking for you"
"Sorry, I'll go in and sort them out for bed, it's getting late"
Grabbing my arm gently he turned me to face him, "hey you okay? Your arms are freezing, how long you been out here?"
"I don't know I lost track of time"
"Come here, let's warm you up"
He pulled me into a hug and I rested my head on his chest as he warmed me up. I felt his heart beating pretty fast under my cheek and I couldn't help but think back to his mums words my son is in love with you.
I looked up at him and he looked down at me and smiled, we just stood there staring into each other eyes and I could feel him leaning in. So I tip toed and lean in too, are lips were just about to touch when Jensen came running outside crying, I quickly jumped away from Chris and picked up my screaming child, "hey, baby boy what's wrong?"
Next minute Scott came running out, "I'm so sorry Jen, I was playing a game and I got a little angry and I shouted and I scared him, I'm so sorry"
I giggled at how truly upset Scott looked.
"It's okay, he is just tired makes him a little sensitive that's all. Come on baby let's go get your brother and get you ready for bed"
"I'm so sorry Jensen, can I get a high 5?" Scott pleaded with my 4 year old.
"Okay" he said raising his hand for a high 5 and just as Scott went to high 5 him Jensen pulled his hand away quickly and bobbed his tongue out and said "haha you missed"
Scott laughed and so did Chris and Jensen then gave Scott a hug and kissed his cheek and said goodnight, as I went in the door, I felt Chris behind me
"Do you want some help putting them to bed"
I turned around and nodded, he grabbed Jake and the boys said good night to everyone, we got them washed down and into the pjs and into bed for a story, they insisted that Chris read them a story tonight but I had to stay and listen too.
I looked at my baby boys in bed, with Chris reading them a story and me sitting here listening and it actually felt like I had a family for once in my life, I was smiling so wide and I felt a tear roll down my cheek, which I quickly wiped away before anyone saw.
Chris finished the story and we turned the lights off and walked towards the living room, his family were still here but once the boys were tucked up, they all said there goodbyes and left.
I finished cleaning the kitchen while Chris cleaned the living room.
I felt Chris walk behind and stop, he put his hands around my waist and lent his head on my shoulder. I could feel his breathe on my neck and it made my breathing accelerate. I turned around in his arms and he was looking at me with so much desire and lust, I couldn't handle it anymore. My hands slid to his neck and pulled his lips to mine.
It was like no other kiss I had ever felt, it's was soft but firm, gentle but rough, his tongue asked for permission and I parted me lips slightly as they started to battle it out. He picked me up and put me on the kitchen counter, the kiss deepened and I knew I would have to pull away soon, I needed air and I wasn't sure if I could go any further just yet.
I reluctantly pulled away and rested my forehead on his, my breathing completely erratic.
I looked at Chris and he had a huge smile on his face and so did I.
"That was......." I started to say before he jumped in with "amazing"
I giggled and I could feel my cheeks blush. He leaned back in for round 2 but I pushed him back slightly.
"Chris, as much as I want to lose myself with you, I have to be cautious, I have to go slow and take my time, I have two little boys in that room who adore you like no other and I don't want to hurt them"
"I adore them too, just like I adore you. Jen these past few weeks living with you has been incredibly, it's been like having my own little family, which I have always wanted. When you walked into my office over 3 year ago, I knew there was something special about you. And I've spent the last few years getting to know everything about you and I think your amazing"
I had tears rolling down my cheeks and he wiped them away with his thumb "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you"
"NO! You didn't, happy tears"
He smiled and kissed me softly once more. "I promise we will take this at your pace, whatever you want...I'm hear for the long haul"
And with that, I pulled him to me for another mind blowing kiss, we parted ways and he went to his bedroom and me to mine and for the first time in a long time, I fell asleep happy and smiling.......little did I know that happiness wasn't going to last very long.......