Fractured

Chapter 5

Trigger Warning

I feel my head move out of it's stiff position to Rowan's shoulder. I slowly opened my eyes and squinted since the window was open so the light was peaking out. 'Hey beautiful' he softly murmured to me. 'Hi' I said blushing. 'Your friends texted you. They just wanted to know where we were. So I just told them that we are still in the airplane and that we have an hour before landing.'

He read my messages? How does he know my password?

But I decided against questioning him about it because he's my boyfriend and it's not a big deal. 'Well who texted?' I kind of hoped it would be Quinn too. 'Oh Darren and Emma' he said. I guess it really is over.

'Hey, why don't you continue sleeping? We only have a few hours anyway and then I'll wake you up when we land. Hmm?' he asked softly. I smiled and nodded. I needed rest and my head was hurting.

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'Baby wake up' I heard Rowan whisper in my ear.

'Mhm yep I'm awake, I'm so tired' I mumbled.

'I got our stuff, don't worry. Once we reach the house, go to bed okay?' he asked. 'Yes definitely, you don't have to ask me twice.' I said. We left the airport in this really nice fancy car. 'How come the car is so I don't know fancy?' I asked. 'My job pays for it all' he whispered. 'How long?' I whined. He chuckles 'We just got in but maybe a few hours.'

The car was kind of like a limo. It had the black thing closed so the driver couldn't hear or see anything that was going on, clearly Rowan already knew that. I fell asleep in the car too. Fighting with people you love who actually love you back isn't healthy. I woke up to something. Rowan was grinning at me. 'What' I asked, extending the what.

'Wanna have car sex?' he asked. No, definitely not. 'No I'm really tired and my head is kind of pounding.' I said. 'But I just wanted to pleasure you in some way.' he said with his half-smile.

'Okay I guess' I laughed.

He pulled my pants down and other things. I was excited but at the same time I wasn't. I don't think this will help the headache. I felt him push something into me. Woah. My back arched but he pushed it down with his other hand smirking at me. 'Don't move' he whispered, chuckling. I felt more stuff go in me, a moan slipped out. He pulled his fingers out.

'Oh come on if you're going to do that, at least let me finish.' I said wiggling. 'No cause then I'll get more hard then I already am' he said turning around. I looked down and right away lifted my hand to muffle my giggles. I grabbed my pants and and underwear and pulled them on.

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I heard the phone ringing, and I picked it up. Oh, is he coming home? Slurred words, god he's drunk. My heart quivers in fear and sorrow. I can't hear his voice. I'm worried for him, but not more than I am for myself. He's drunk again.  I hope no one at work is like this too. No there's people like him everywhere in the world. 'Answer me,' his voice screams from the phone. I'm so quiet I don't think I'm breathing. I'm too scared. This is happening all over again but with him instead.

All these years I healed. My friends, everything I've moved on except from the nightmares about my mother and the overthinking I'm fine. Therapy is just for little things. That's it, I can't do this anymore. I hung up the phone. He'll kill me. I packed my bags in a hurry, they're scattered everywhere. I put my hand on my head and winced. Still healing. Sore cuts. God where's my phone?

I left the house with everything in my bags. SHIT. NO. NO. How is he here that fast? Stupid fast car. He's walking in front of me. He saw me running. His eyes move to me to the suitcase and everything I have and back to me. He looks even more pissed. He's running. I ran the other direction. I wanna scream for help. But after last night my throat and voice doesn't work anymore. I felt two arms around my waist carrying me, taking me back into that house. NOT THAT HOUSE. I HATE THAT HOUSE SO MUCH.

I fucked up, and now I'm trapped in this house I thought I loved but hate instead.

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My mother smacked me again. 'Useless waste of space.' she yelled as I sobbed. I saw her turning around. I sighed. Is she finally done hurting me? I saw her coming back my way with three empty bottles of beer. Oh shit. My eyes widened. 'No no no no no' I muttered. My legs feel like gel but I ran. I ran to my room trying to lock it but it was too late. She managed to open it.

Who does this to their own child? She does. She's fucked in the head. I hate you dad. You fucking homewrecker. 'MOM PLEASE' I screamed trying to reason. I moved back more and then realized there's no where I can go. My back touched the window. She came closer. 'Don't call me mom you whore!' she screamed. She hit me on the head with her beer bottle. 

I felt liquid dripping down the side of my face. I was losing consciousness, I felt dizzy. I heard her laughing as she took the other two and kept them in the corner saving them for later to hurt me with. She opened the window and pushed me. I was falling. I was drowning. I fell in our pool. She'll make me clean the bloody pool later.

I felt her pushing my head deeper in the water. My eyes were about to close when I felt myself getting pulled up. She pulled me up and left me on the cold ground. I coughed and gagged on that water. The blood taste in my mouth. That'll leave a nasty scar. I fell asleep there.

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Where was I? It was a bedroom. I'm hyperventilating. Panic attacks. I felt the arm around my waist tighten and then loosen. 'Hey hey. You're safe. Are you okay? What happened?' he asked. Oh it's Rowan but I wasn't responding. I couldn't. 'Do you need water?' he asked. I nodded. He ran out of the room and got water. I took huge gulps. 'Calm down tiger. Wanna tell me what happened now?' he asked.

I feel much better now. I guess it's time to finally tell him, but I need to ask him about this place first. 

'Okay I'll tell you. But where are we?' I asked, looking around curiously. 'Oh, this is our home. I didn't want to wake you up. You looked adorable. So I bought you in. Our stuff and everything is already set up don't worry. I'll show you around later. Now tell me what happened.' he said softly brushing his fingers on my cheek that I'm leaning into.

'So uh uhm.' I stopped there and chuckled, putting my head on my legs and wrapping my arms around my legs trying to contain the sobs spilling and rocking myself back and forth. 'Take your time.' he whispered.

'So my dad and mom were madly in love but my dad cheated on my mom and left us. When he left she became abusive and did horrific things.' hiccupping in between the words. I didn't tell him about the first nightmare because it was a nightmare where I didn't know who it was, where it was, and if it was me.                                              

That first dream was a bit scary too but I'm pretty sure it was just a movie scene. That night was just him holding me in his embrace while I let it all out. He whispered so much in my ears. I love him so much. I'm so grateful.

A/N: Sorry a lot happened in my life and a lot is still happening. What can I say that's life. Ngl this chapter made me cry. I love you guys so much. So wb Rowan now? Sus? Have fun. I hope you like it! <3