Midnight\\C.H.

...19...

"Just one interview here at noon and then you guys are free until rehearsals," I tell the guys before I sip my coffee, trying to avoid Luke's gaze that he keeps bouncing between Calum and I.

"What to do with our spare time? What to do?" Luke taunts us as he casually leans back in his chair to stretch.

"I'm picking up Sierra at the airport with Miles at 2 so I don't have much spare time," I remind him.

"Yep," he smiles at me knowingly and also a jab that I can't be alone with Calum.

"We have a party tonight right?" Michael asks.

"Yes," I agree.

"It's another club though isn't it?" Ashton purses his lips, "I miss house parties."

"You get in less trouble at clubs than house parties," I remind him with a pinch on his cheek.

"That's true," he cackles.

"Yeah, you little shit," Calum laughs

"You get in trouble no matter where we go," Michael waves at Calum before he giggles.

"That's for damn sure," Luke looks at him and then at me. "Everywhere we go."

"I do not," Calum rolls his eyes.

"Cecil disagrees," Michael says and everyone laughs but him and I.

"Fuck those gossip channels," Calum growls.

"So you're NOT cheating on Cecil?" Luke accuses.

"Mate," Ashton groans, "Don't be a dick. He already told us he wasn't."

"Yeah," Luke looks at Ash and then at me, "he did."

I notice Michael looking at all of us, his face scrunching up in suspicion before he narrows his eyes, "What is going on?"

I swallow feeling sick but drink my coffee anyway before Luke looks at Cal, giving him the opportunity. Calum looks at me and then so does Mikey before Ashton follows suit, his brows furrowed. My eyes bounce between them and then I look at Luke annoyed as Calum clears his throat.

"Lotti and I have been hooking up since the beginning of tour," he confesses, his choice of words angering me before everyone exclaims.

"Beginning of tour!" Luke gawks at Calum as both Mikey and Ashton go "WHAT!?" and stare at me in shock.

I don't say anything just look at all of them, feeling ashamed and hurt by Calum's blasé way of addressing it, like its just a little fun fling.

"Why are you with Cecil then?" Mikey asks Calum, judgment and irritation on his face. "It's not right to cheat on your girlfriend no matter what a bitch she is. Break up with her if you want to sleep with other people. God damn, Calum."

"I don't need you guys to lecture me and tell me how to handle this," Calum stands up, annoyance etching into his face.

"Lotti, you know that's not fair to Cecil, right?" Mikey says quietly to me.

I look at Calum, begging him to explain that its not just a fling, that we aren't just hooking up for a good lay, that we love each other, but he just walks towards the door annoyed. My eyes water, feeling betrayed and inferior. Is he ashamed to admit to them that he loves me? Is he ashamed of me? I think about him saying he wants to be with me, but maybe that was just to rid himself of the guilt and not to actually be with me publically.

"Tell them," I say through my teeth before he grabs the handle, needing to hear him say it out loud to them.

He huffs and lets go of he handle as they all look between us, wondering what is going on, "I can't break up with Cecil and cause drama but I don't want to be with her. I want to be with Lotti."