Chapter Two:
'my feeling is love'
The worst thing of all is that i think my crush has a huge crush on one of my best friends that he only knows because of me and if it wasnt for me he wouldnt really know who she was.
I can see that he flirts with her and she flirts back thats what is confusing me. I have even asked him if he likes her and he said he doesnt and what hurts me most is that i have told him how i feel, and he has feelings for NOBODY.
It really hurts. If i had a possibility of having one wish just one i would wish that he would see the way i actually felt, because i sort of lied a little to him saying i only had a little tiny crush on him when its more than that its more like double triple and forever. I have never felt this way about a boy before and i dont know what to do because i have never felt this way about anyone. I wish love could be less confusing and less hurtful then everyones life and i mean everyones life would be so much easier.
There is only a few things that i get to do with him just me and him is he is in most of my classes and he lives around the corner from me so sometimes we walk together and have a very, very good time. He wrote on the back of me pencil case and wrote Jake in big letters, so a few days later i wrote 'i <3 you' nobody has seen it but a few so i really hope he sees it so he can actually see how i feel, but i have a feeling that might never happen.
Love is the hardest feeling in the world.
When you are madly in love and then your feelings get crushed you feel like you are a potato been made in to mashed potato but more like mashed life and mashed love.
