Then it was Monday the 11th and I got to see russa after are nice conversation about everything that had been happening to them.
I felt bad that they had to go though that,speaking from experience it is not a pleasant situation to be in and I get that.
I walk back though the gates walking right in to hell as I call it. I wish I could just not be there because that would be great but of course I have to go though 6 hours of just pure torture. Fabulous I know.
As you walk in you would see the groups of people standing tougher. First you would see the chavs and roadmen standing together then the normal people that I am mostly friends with, then the wired boys and if you know what I mean I am sorry. And then the group of guys that I am friends with.
Then there is are friend group. With is basically just a group of gay people with one straight person. There is a lot of drama in the group to be honest,we did have two straight people but then she left she is also one of my best friends.
I walk straight past the chavs and roadmen and went straight up to russa to only see my best friend talking to them so I thought know it can be easier to talk to them...
I walk up to them both as they start to laugh I wondered what they were laughing about but it didn't bother me that much,I just wanted to talk to them.
'Hey'
'Hello,bestieeeeee' she said
Russa just looked at them concerned and moved on to say hello back to me.
I don't know why but that made me happy..?
But I didn't think I liked them and I am sure they don't like me because of everything that had happened,they just couldn't.
Soon enough it was time to go to lessons, I had maths firsts i always have maths first. I ask russa were they were going and they say
' I am in c24'
'I am in c14 we can walk together if you would like?'
'Sure'
I am happy that they wanted to walk with me :)
I start to walk to my maths expecting russa to come with me but they stayed back. I walk back to them to see what is up?
'I don't like crowds'
I felt bad for them so I decided to wait with them until it was on for them to walk. It was nice we talked for a bit while waking but then they had to go to the second floor and I was on the first so we said are goodbyes and I walked to my maths class.
After maths we go to lunch. I walk into the hall and look to see we're my best friend was. She was sat next to them. Russa.
I go and sit down next to them and try and speak to them but they seem to be more interested in the conversation with her.
I don't know why but I felt this feeling,feeling of someone heavy and I felt not sad but not happy..
Was I jealous?
But if what my best friend is straight and i don't like russa like that. I am sure of it. I just wish, they would pay more attention to me.
That isn't bad right?
After lunch we go under the canopy's and wait to be called to go to next lesson. I start to laugh and joke around with my best friend and we then russa comes over and for some reason I start to feel happy. But soon enough that faded and I felt that heaviness in my stomach again. Because they both stared to talk about how amazing there time was tougher.I just wish I could of been there. Been with russa. I am sure it would of been so fun...
But I am sure they would never want to hang out with me...
Maybe?
