I'm so tired of my family saying "you could've done better than that","why'd you let them pass you up, second place isn't good enough. You need to be first." I've never been good enough. Never. For my family my friends, nobody. Because I honestly don't think I can get very far. I know I can't. I've tried, and every time I did...I always landed flat on my face. So I got tired of people laughing at me, and became fake. I made a mask,a cover, etc. (I became someone I wasn't...and hid the real me) I started smiling most of the time,I went online and looked up some funny jokes, and started being liked. It was the first thing I succeeded in in a really long time.
But then I realized that, after acting like someone I'm not for so long, I don't even know who I am anymore. And I know it sounds kinda stupid....but that's how I feel. It sucks. So that's why I always tell people to always be who they are, and who they want to be. I try everyday to find me again and, to be honest, I don't know if I'm making progress or not...but I'll never stop trying.
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I Don't Know How Long I Can Keep Holding On
General FictionThis is my story...my cry out for help. ....please.... After you read this one, check out my other book where I keep all my stuff too it is called My Wattpad Journal
