The Big League - Drew Starkey

chapter thirty six.

MALLORY'S POV

"So, you're telling me this entire time you've not only been hanging out with the entire cast of Outer Banks, but you've been dating Drew Starkey for the past month and didn't bother to say anything to me?" Savannah looked at me through my phone, her eyebrows raised as she tried to comprehend all of the information I just told her.

"Look, Sav," I started, trying to explain as to why I didn't tell her anything. "I'm a private person, you know that. Drew is a private person as well and we just didn't want anyone to know yet. I don't know," I shrugged to myself. "I guess I just wanted us to last a little while before we told anyone. The only people who know are his friends and cast mates, and that's only because we would see them everyday." I told her.

I felt bad for not telling Savannah about what my life has been like for the past two months, but if I were being honest, everything felt too good to be true and I was scared of waking up one day to it all being gone. I was scared of no longer living my best life, I was scared of losing Drew, I was scared of not being friends with the entire cast anymore. And that was exactly what happened to me this morning. I woke up at my apartment in LA and it was all gone.

"I get that," Sav nodded. "But dude, it's the fucking cast of Outer Banks, how could you not at least tell me you were working for the show now? Do you have any idea how confused I was when I saw you were tagged on Drew's Instagram post? Or OBX's?" She questioned me and I agreed with her, realizing how confusing it must've been for her.

"You're right." I nodded. "I'm sorry. I guess I just got so caught up in everything, I didn't think to mention it to you."

She was making me feel even more guilty now because we watched the show together and I knew she loved everything about it just as much as I did. 

"I can't even believe it. Like my best friend shared an apartment with the Madelyn Cline and the Madison Bailey. My best friend has been dating the Drew fucking Starkey. My best friend has been in the same room as the Rudy Pankow. How did this happen?" Savannah questioned as she thought back to all of the details of my life I just told her from the past couple months.

"I'm still trying to figure that out myself." I said softly as I reflected back on everything that has happened to me since I moved to LA. 

Part of me was glad that I facetimed her because I needed someone to talk to now that I was by myself again. It felt so good to finally tell her everything. I explained what happened to her, from the first moment I laid my eyes on Drew up until now, where I was sitting on the couch of my apartment, hating myself for letting this happen. The other part of me regretted calling her because the more that I talked about my life in the past couple months, the more I felt myself getting upset over this situation. I regretted leaving Drew so much, but it had to be done.

When I got home from Charleston yesterday, I spent the entire day crying. I was so upset I let this happen. I knew it was all too good to be true. My heart felt so broken, even though I was the one to cut things off with Drew. I kept trying to tell myself it was for the better but I couldn't think of what the better would be. Drew and I made each other so happy. He cared so deeply about me and I was so in love with him.

I should've told Chase to fuck off and leave us be, but he was absolutely right. To them, I was a random girl off the streets of LA that Drew brought home to his friends. They had every right to be skeptical of me, but as time went on and the more we hung out, I thought everyone genuinely liked me. I felt so accepted and welcomed into their group the first day that I met them and they were some of the best people I had ever met. I couldn't believe I'd never get the chance to see them or hang out with them again.