Losing Hope

Chapter 53 - Chasing cars

(Her - Hope) Now...

Anatoli is gone! Finally, He got what he deserves! I'm feeling so revealed! I would like to say everything is over but it's never. We still have to find the pack who attacked us with Anatoli... But before that we want to enjoy our victory. I want some peaceful time with my son, my mate, my family and my friends. A huge weight has just been lifted from our shoulders and I feel how relieved we're all.

We have dinner tonight with our family to at least enjoy. I wish Melinda and Al could be here with us. I think I'm going to check on Al soon. I know I can't intervene but I need to know what's going on. Noah is still taking it well and Dan loves to share his room with him. Only Duncan is missing. Noah is visiting his mother everyday and takes the time to explain everything that is doing every day. Right now he's playing with Dan is his room.

I look at my right side, checking at Ryder who is lost in his own thoughts. Something is bothering him and he's not really here with us. I can feel that his mind is occupied with something. We lost 4 wolves today which I feel really bad about. Maybe this is what is bothering him, it's bothering me too. If only I would've come earlier.

"We will take revenge on him! Tomorrow we will find him!"My tiger comments.

"Agree but everybody needs some rest." I reply.

Her too is angry about their death and we're both blaming ourselves. They were attacked because of me, because Anatoli wanted me.

"Don't! Don't blame yourself. It's Anatoli's fault and that fucking pack we dared attacked us!" Ryder says in my mind.

We didn't have time to definitely finish the mating and I'm still not bearing his final mark but we didn't have the time and once the excitement of Anatoli's end had deflated we just think about mourning our loss. Anyway even if our mating is not complete since I helped him to win back his energy and his wolf is back, our bond is stronger and he can feel my emotions and hear my thoughts and I can too.

"I know you're blaming yourself too. As an Alpha, you're affected." I reply.

"And their Luna, you're too."

Not officially yet.

"Soon to be Luna. It's the same. As soon as I took care of the fucking pack who help that monster we will do the ceremony."

"Perfect!" I whisper in his mind.

"Be ready Baby Girl. Tomorrow first thing in the morning I will find who this fucking Alpha is and challenge him in this afternoon. He could be dead before the end of the day and you will crown Luna tomorrow night." He states.

"I know you're upset Ryder, but you need to think before acting. You can't attack an Alpha like that."

" Wolves of mine died because of Him. I demand his blood!" He hisses in my mind. His Fury is palpable.

"Calm down, you're growling!" I warn him.

"Ryder, are you okay?" His mother asks him.

He sighs: " I'm fine. I just need some fresh air."

He leaves the dining room quickly.

"It's about the pack who attacked us?" His father asks but it's more an affirmation than a question. I nod.

"I need to think before acting. Running and growling like a crazy wolf is not what is needed right now." I comment.

I'm getting up and state: " I want to speak to the families of the ones we lost today."

Meeting the 4 families was so hard! Good thing is I was not alone. Ethan came with me. He knew everything about them and that helped me to express to them my sadness and respect. I cried with them, I cried for them. This is so hard.