Tell Me That I'm All You Want

Scared to get it

Arizona woke up at 5am. She slept only 4 and half hours, but she was used to that so she wasn't tired. She looked at Tim and he was still deep asleep. She decided to text Tim's babysitter to take day off, she will be with him today. She felt down again, she didn't want to. She knew all the facts. She knew everything, but she still felt like she is ready to jump off the cliff, then she looked at Tim and he was everything what was holding her from not doing it.
She decided to go to her personal gym, because she knew that Tim will be asleep for 2 more hours. She changed and went to the underground floor. There are several rooms like gym, she has like music room, because she loves to play the piano, she has there big room for her awards and all the things like this.

She was finished at 6:30. She was so mentally exhausted. She just laid there on the floor and stared at the ceiling. All kinds off thoughts were running through her head, but she didn't have time for that. She knew she need to pull herself together for Tim, for everybody. She wasn't for breakfast today, she didn't eat from yesterday's surgery. When something is wrong she stops eating.

She picked herself up and walked out of the door from gym. She was all sweaty as she heard something beautiful coming from her music room. Doors to the music room weren't closed so she stood by the doors frame. She saw Callie playing the piano and signing. It was something beautiful until Callie saw her.

"You scared me to death." Callie said like she just saw ghost
"Sorry." Arizona said
"Mark said I can go here. Is it okay with you?" Callie asked
"Yeah totally." Arizona said
"So you play?" Callie asked
"Yeah, this piano means a lot." Arizona said
"It's beautiful piano. Will you play?" Callie said and Arizona immediately shook her head
"Come on." Callie begged
"No chance." Arizona said
"Dr.Robbins I want to hear you play." Callie begged one more time
"Fine." Arizona said and went to sit down to the piano
"I want to play your song. Do you have notes?" Arizona asked
"Here you are. I have here only The Story and Universe and U." Callie said, Arizona took the Universe and U notes and started going through them.
"Shall we?" Arizona asked and Callie nodded

Arizona hit the first note and Callie took a deep breath and started signing. These two together worked like a symphony. Callie's signing was incredible. Arizona felt something what she never felt. All these electric shocks were running through her body. Callie and Arizona sat on one tiny chair.
When Arizona hit the last note. Both of them felt it. Both of them wanted it. And both of them were scared to get it.
They looked at each other and Arizona wanted to kiss her. She didn't want to lead it somewhere else. She just wanted to kiss her deeply, so she did it. They just sat there and were kissing as they stopped and just felt each other breath.
"Arizona you smell really bad." Callie said and laughed
"I was at the gym." Arizona said in defense
"What this house doesn't have?" Callie asked and Arizona smiled
"Anyway I need to go." Arizona said and Callie nodded
"Okay." Callie said, Arizona stood up and walked out.

2 hours later Arizona took Tim to school and Mark, Teddy and Callie were having a breakfast. When Arizona returned the house seemed empty. She just stood there and listened the silence. She needed to go to call Addison, so she did.
After the call they agreed on everything. Arizona will leave on Monday and the first few days, they will be just going through the procedure. Arizona knows she will be there for some time.

She was about to stand up as Mark walked through her doors with full plates of food.
"What are you doing Mark?" Arizona asked
"I know you did not eat anything from yesterday. So I brought you a food." Mark said and Arizona rolled her eyes
"I am not hungry." Arizona said and Mark sat the plates on the table
"Arizona maybe you are not, but you should eat. I watch you. I know in what mental place you are. But you need to eat, at least for Tim." Mark said. Arizona just sat there and thought about everything then she took a bite. She did not like the food, but she knew she needed to eat.
"Do you want to talk?"Mark asked, Arizona shook her head like no and Mark sat on one of the chairs.
"So you are going to watch me eat?" Arizona asked
"I'm just spending some quality silent time with my beautiful blonde best friend." Mark said and Arizona rolled her eyes again
"So tell me about last night." Arizona said
"It was fine. Me and Teddy saved everybody." Mark said and Arizona smiled
"And why didn't you mention at least one time about ending thing with certain Italian doctor." Mark said and Arizona almost choked
"I haven't had time." Arizona said
"Why did you end up things with her?" Mark asked
"I don't know. I just felt like I needed to." Arizona said
"So it is not because of some Latin singer?" Mark asked
"No, that's not the reason." Arizona said and they just sat there. After few minutes Arizona finished the food and decided to speak up.
"A feel emotionally drained." Arizona said and Mark just nodded
"I feel like I want to cry all the time, but nothing comes out. Not a single drop. I must be broken or something like that." Arizona said and Mark went to hug her
"I know Arizona." Mark said and Arizona just stood there
"No work for you today. You will go with me, Teddy and Callie watch some dumb Christmas films, because there are Christmas in less than a month." Mark said. Arizona didn't like the plan, but she knew that it won't be bad for her.