HP Universe Imagines

Breaking the habits ~Oliver Wood~

Featuring He/Him Y/N with Oliver Wood
Warning from author: This one-shot contains mentions of death, blood, self-harm and suicide. Please don't read it if this triggers you or makes you feel uncomfortable. Please stay and be safe! Another thing is, (this is optional) this has a song attached to it. It's called "Breaking the Habit" by Linkin Park.

Classes were over for the day. Finally. You walk into the Gryffindor common room and sit down on the couch, holding your head in your hands. The day had been quite the crazy one. And stressful, at that. Other Gryffindor's walk in and talk with their friends, or do whatever it is they do, but they're paying no attention to you. And it was a good thing as well. If they had, who knows what your reaction would be.. The rest of the day dragged on, but you didn't move from your spot. The sun had gone down and the moon had come up. Everyone was in their own dorms but you didn't move from the couch, stubbornly. You begin to take a deep breath as you lift your head up and look around. The whole place was empty. There's no sound, only the crackling of the fire and the howling of the wind.

The day begins to replay in your head. Multiple messed up concoctions in Potions, several misconfigured cats in Transfiguration, a second year in Charms who was almost tickled to death, and a failed pop quiz in Muggle Studies. You run your hand through your hair, ruffing it up a little bit, and sigh deeply. "Love? What are you still doing up? It's getting late." You heard from behind you. You turn your head around and see Oliver walking up to the couch. "Hey Ollie. Just overthinking things." He comes around the couch and sits next to you. You lean your head on his shoulder and take a deep breath, tears pricking your eyes. "What happened today?" He asks worried. You give him the play-by-play, start to finish. "I'm so sorry Lovie, I had no idea. You want to go up to our dorm and cuddle? It might make all of this become a little better."

You look at him and say, "Of course baby. I'm safe in our room." You think it over a second more, and say to him with your eyes wide, "Unless I try to start again..." He looks at you confused and worried. "Start what again?" You both stand up and walk to the stairs that led to the dorms. "I don't want to be the one, the battles always choose. Because inside, I realize: I'm the one confused." You get to your dorm and stand outside the door. "I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I'd have to scream. I don't know why I instigate, or say what I don't mean." Oliver lightly takes your wrists in his hands and says, "I don't know how you got this why, and we both know it's not alright! You have to break your habits Y/N, don't go back to hurting yourself. I don't know what I would do if I lost you!"

A tear slips down your cheek as Oliver pulls you in and hugs you. "It's almost too much Ollie. I don't know what else to do. I can't break this habit. Not this one." Oliver pulls back and looks into your eyes. "What about me? I won't be able to move on after you. I just wouldn't. You mean way too much to me Y/N." Your voice cracks, "I- know. I'm sorry I just- it's so much. The burden of everything. I don't want to have to keep this weight on my shoulders, and I know it sounds selfish but-" Oliver interrupts you. "Never say that ok? It's not at all selfish to want a break from everything and everyone. I know I don't understand but I'll try to put myself in your shoes ok? Just please hold on, and don't leave me just yet." He lets go of your wrists and you wrap your arms around his neck as he kisses your cheek. "I love you Ollie. I'm sorry." You both go into your dorms and get changed into pj's before crawling into bed and hugging each other, and if it was the last time you ever would.