heather | saebyeok

십 | life saver

tw throwing up (?) and there's cursing in this one  :)

saebyeok opened her eyes, and the first thing she saw was the big window of yuko's room . the sun was shining through the blinds , and then she realized where she is . she wanted to turn around to face yuko , but she noticed that the blonde haired girl's arms were around her waist . she smiled and blushed , it was a nice feeling knowing that someone loves her this much . maybe she's faking it. maybe she's faking it because she knows that i have no one but her ?  come on saebyeok , don't think like that.

saebyeok was distracted  from her thoughts when yuko started moving around in her bed . she pulled back her arms from saebyeok's waist , so the black haired girl turned around , and she was finally facing yuko . she looked at her beautiful face , and couldn't help but think oh my god , i have the prettiest friend ever ... friend huh ? friend ... she was lost in her thoughts but then she realized that yuko opened her eyes , and she was now looking at the black haired girl . 

" good morning " she said softly . " you're really cute when you're thinking . what were you thinking about ? " yuko asked smiling at the other one .

" you ? " said saebyeok , but it was more like a question because she didn't know what to say .

" me ? " yuko  was confused but her heart was beating faster than ever . 

" yes , don't act surprised , i know you're thinking about me too . and all the things you want to do to me .. " said saebyeok .

yuko was speechless . and before she could think of something to say , saebyeok moved closer to her , and their faces were inches away . yuko held her breath because she didn't know what saebyeok wanted from her . what is happening ? she thought .

" i know you want to kiss me . " said the black haired girl and smirked . 

the blonde haired girl grinned , then pushed saebyeok away and they both laughed . yuko couldn't take this anymore so she stood up and went to the bathroom . she took deep breaths , brushed her teeth and washed her face . when she went back to the room , she saw a now changed back into her clothes saebyeok . 

" my clothes are so dirty . " said the girl when she saw yuko standing in the bathroom's door .

" just say that you want my clothes .  " said the blonde haired girl , and went to her closet . she pulled out a shirt and jeans she thought saebyeok would like , and they were oversized , so it would be perfect for the black haired girl .

" than you , you're a life saver . " 

" i'm always here to save your life . " said yuko , and she got ready too .

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they were having breakfast in the kitchen when suddenly saebyeok's phone rang . she picked it up and rolled her eyes . yuko was confused , but when she heard yelling — again —  she knew it was her mom . 

" okay , sorry , i'm coming . " said the black haired girl and hung up .

" is everything okay ? " yuko asked .

" yes of course , my mom is just furious . "

" why ? " 

" because i slept at a friends house . " said saebyeok , then went to the door and said goodbye to yuko .

" when can i see you again ? " asked the blonde haired girl , looking up at the taller one .

" i .. i have no idea . " said the black haired girl , because if her mom is angry , she never knows what's gonna happen to her . will her mother ground her ? will she beat her up again ? will she just jell at her ? throw a chair at her ? nobody knows .

yuko decided to give saebyeok a big , tight hug , and the girl hugged her back . she was getting used to this . all this hugging and skinship felt actually really nice . 

" everything will be fine ! if you need me , i'm here . " said the blonde girl .

" thanks . " 

saebyeok went home , but before she entered her house , she took a deep breath and prepared herself for what's about to happen . i either go straight to my room , or ... no , she's going to get angrier if i do that . i should just listen to what she wants to say . or yell ...

she opened the door , and saw her mom standing in the kitchen with a glass of wine in her hand . she was waiting for the girl to get home , and when she walked up to her mother , the older started yelling . 

" what do you think you're doing ? where were you ? " she shouted . it's a saturday morning for fucks sake . saebyeok thought .

" i was  with a friend . "

" and who gave you the permission to be with your friend ? who even is this guy ? is he your boyfriend ? " her mother's face was like a tomato , and a vein on her forehead became visible . 

" it's a girl mom . " said saebyeok hesitantly , because she didn't know what will happen if she says something like this .

" A GIRL? AND YOU SLEPT WITH HER ? " her mom yelled and threw the — now empty — wine glass at her daughter . it landed on the living room's floor.

saebyeok dodged the glass and looked at her mom again . she felt anger and disappointment . and of course sadness . why couldn't she have a loving mom ?

" don't think like that . " she said . 

her mom started walkig towards her and she was walking backwards until her back reached the wall . her mom was so close to her , she just wanted to push her away , but she didn't want her mom to get angrier . 

" i'm ashamed of you , you little asshole . " she said and slapped saebyeok .

the girl was on the verge of crying and she was feeling nauseous , so she ran upstairs .

" yeah go to your room , you disgusting piece of shit ! " her mom yelled after her one more time and it was her breaking point , the last straw . 

saebyeok ran to the bathroom , kneeled down next to the toilet and threw up . when she was done , she just sat on the bathroom's floor and cried . minutes felt like hours , and she just layed there wondering why she deserves all of this . she didn't do anything to deserve this . but atleast she has yuko . no other has yuko , like she does .