impossible mating

Chapter 1

Maddox POV

Everything was usual to me except for my wolf, he's anxious and it has me on edge because I have no idea what to expect. He wants to be set free which puzzles me because we went hunting just this morning. I am having a hard time concentrating and paying attention to this meeting I'm in.

I am the alpha of the bluesky pack, I am 37 years of age and have never met my mate and so I got a replacement for her, do not judge me I searched a good length of time for her and came empty. Anyways I am too old, I may live up to over 100 years but I wasn't willing to spend them alone.

As of now I am mated to Viola, our beta's sister. We have a 3 year old baby girl Rianna and I'm really happy. I love Sofia and my daughter more then anything in the whole world. My wolf also accepted Sofia now and loves Rianna but the wolf part is complicated, he often feels lonely and shuts off. He still longs for his moon partner and it saddens me that he will never meet her, even if we were to meet her now I will never accept her.

I would reject her without thinking twice about it. I mean how would she even fit in here?, the pack has a Luna and I have a family so what would be her role?, but let's not dwell on things that would never happen, she probably died long time ago.

My wolf growls so loud in anger not liking the thought of his mate being dead so much that I had an outburst in the middle of the meeting I'm currently attending. The wolf is very hormonal today it pisses me off.

"excuse me, I am going outside you can continue with the meeting" I say to colleagues that I do business with in the city and excuse myself quickly to calm down as I still find it hard to contain the outburst of my wolf.

Benjamin my beta tries to link me to find out what is going on, but I'm unable to receive his massage because of the wolf.

'WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?' I ask my wolf as soon as I am outside. It's not like I am expecting an answer, you see my wolf is not normal, he doesn't communicate so I never know whats going on but he's restless about something today and I can feel it and keeps wanting control but I reign him in. 'NKOSANA WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU' I ask him and he forces a shift. My claws come out and my body expands preparing for the transformation.

My wolf has never done anything close to this and damnit it hurts, I reign him in again and I'm pissed now but I can't do anything about it since the wolf and I are literally one. We're not even allowed to shift in the city.

'STOP IT' I scream at my wolf Nkosana now and he suddenly calms down and I take a look around to find people starring at me and flash them my teeth and they scurry away quickly in fear.

Just as I was about to return inside and rejoin the meeting the most amazing scent hits me. I swear I have never smelled anything quite like this and I can't figure out what it is. I look around now trying to figure out where the enticing smell is coming from.

The scent gets stronger and my wolf yeeps in joy, maybe he's hungry. I realize that the scent gets stronger as the tourist bus approaches, so it must be there. They must be having foreign scents there that would explain why I don't know what the smell is.

I look at the bus curiously and then I spot her. The most beautiful creature I have ever seen and she takes my breath away. Everything stops as I look at her, she's at the top of the bus looking around with interest and loughing at something the girl next to her said.

'mate' Nkosana says in excitement. The wolf shocks me out of my mesmerized state. Since when does he talk?

"it can't be" I say out loud still looking at the young girl on the bus.

'GO GET OUR MATE' the wolf is aggressive, he's aware the bus is moving away from us now as it just passed.

' you know I can't do that' I tell the wolf and he responds with violence again. He tries to take control again that it takes all my energy to reign him in. I try to run back inside thinking maybe if I'm locked up it would be better.

As soon as I enter the room I give up my fight and fall by the door, as soon as I am down Nkosana tries to take over with more force. My beta is very quick to realize what is going on surely noting my eyes changing from blue to grey repeatedly. Already knowing how abnormally aggressive my wolf gets

"shoot him" he says to the man with wolfsbane dut-gun at the table. Don't blame him he is protecting his life knowing how temperamental we can get in our meetings.

Just like that I'm out. When I wake up I'm cuffed like an animal but for the first time I'm thankful. I must have been unconscious for a while because when I wake up I found myself chained to a bed. It was dramatic.

I look around to find Benny in a chair near by. As soon as he notices I'm awake he's quick to check on me like a doctor.

"Benjamin you are no doctor. Get these cuffs off me and quit starring" I say. The wolfsbane must have weakened my wolf because for the first time today he is quiet. But I'm also very weak.

"ohh man, you're finally awake" he says relief washing through him.

"how long have I been out?" I ask the still stationary Benjamin. The guy is making no move to remove these burning cuffs off me.

"wwelll..." he takes too long

"Benjamin?" I call impatiently

"you have been out since yesterday" he says. I am shocked.

"how.... I don't even feel like I rested for that long, remove these cuffs off me" I repeat myself

"well uhhh.... That's because your wolf was fighting the wolfsbane until midnight before the poison got to him" he says. The wolf's persistence is admirable, this is impossible.

Normally, I never feel the presence of my wolf unless necessary I call him forward. He is never bothered by the things that bother me so I give him control when hunting which he enjoys and we hardly ever get any violence in our location so I have not needed to fight in wolf form. He doesn't train with my pack because he is very aggressive and unpredictable.

Yesterday is the first time I can feel anything from him and it got too much for me. I should have known something was happening. I don't know how well he will respond to me rejecting his mate but it has to be done.