"joanna open the door please" i say
"please i'm sorry i shouldn't have mentioned y/n i'm sorry baby please open the door let's talk this through"
i try to open the door and kept knocking
"i won't leave until you open the door"
i was able to hear her sobbing, it broke my heart hearing her cry i made her cry. what's wrong with me ? why do i make the women that i love cry ? first y/n and now joanna
"joanna please... i love you" i say as i rest my forehead on her door
i hear her unlocking the door and she opens it with puffy eyes and trails of her tears down her cheeks
"what did you say ?" she says in a whisper
"i love you, i love you i love you" i say and gently grab her face and kiss her but she doesn't kiss back
" i love you more than life itself"
"no richard" she says with tears in her eyes again
"baby please don't cry"
"i can't help it, you can't love me"
"why not"
"because i'm not who you think i am!"
"what are you talking about obviously i know who you are"
"no you dont ! you can't love me you hate me you have to"
"why would i hate you ?"
"because you have too"
"joanna, do you not feel the same way as i do ?"
"what ?"
"do you love me ?"
joanna stays silent breaks eye contact with me and looks away
"joanna" i can feel tears building up
"do you love me ?"
"n-no" she says and my vision gets covered with tears
"why what did i do wrong" i ask as my voice cracks
"please richard don't" she says as she removes my hands from her face and walks into her room
i followed in behind her
"no let's talk this out, was it because of how much i talk about y/n ?"
she freezes
"stop mentioning her" she says with her back still facing me
"answer my question, is it because of that ?"
"she's dead !!" she yells as she turns around
"h-how do you know? did you know her ?"
she looks at me then looks away
"she told me about you richard, you killed her mentally. she couldn't continue living with all that pain you put her through. she loved you more than anything"
"did she commit suicide ?" i ask
joanna looks at me and nods
i felt my heart breaking as i heard that my first love died, i was never able to apologize or give her that type of love that she wanted from me the love that she deserved
my knees got week and i sat on joanna's bed as i let my tears fall
"how did you know her ?" i ask
"she was my best friend i knew her more than anyone, so much that people say i remind them of her"
"oh my god, it's my fault" i say and start crying
joanna sits next to me and hugs me as i cry and cry
after a minute she talks
"richard ?" she says
"hm ?" i respond as i keep my head on her chest
"i think we should break up"
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Your Loving Lie
Romancey/n and richard know each other since middle school, through out high school richard starts to get into the wrong crowd after high school they part their ways, one day y/n runs into him both not recognizing who the other is y/n works in the FBI whi...
