I'm Not Okay

Chapter 2

Luke's P.O.V~~~

An annoying alarm clock wakes me up leaving me with a pounding headache already. The warm spring air coming through the windows. Which is totally bipolar compared to the thunder yesterday.

Yesterday was fucking heartbreaking. I so close to cutting deeper and I would've bleed out. But no. Ashton came in and heard my crying like a baby. Not because it hurt, but because I think I still -

Calum interrupts my thoughts and comes in trying to awake Ash and Michael comes in too fixing his hair in the mirror. He's been having the need to dye his hair colors. Last week it was blue, now it's a purple color. Mikey's fucking weird.

"Cmon Ash. We have to work on a song today" Calum says shaking Ashton's shoulder. In response he slaps him on his cheek playfully.

Next it was my turn to wake up. I proped myself up on one elbow and rubbed my eyes with the other.
"Cmon lads. We'll meet you guys in the bus" Michael says to Ash and I. He grabs Calums arms and pulls him onto his back and he walks out the door. They're such little kids sometimes I swear.

Getting up was easy however taking a shower wasn't. My cuts stung like hell the whole time until I got out and dried up. I put on my usual black skinny jeans and a T-shirt with my all black converse.

Ashton is already walking out the door. "Cmon Lucas lets go bud" he says giggling a bit. He laughs too much but I don't mind. He's the oldest in the band and laughs like a little kid the most.

"Alright I'm comin" I groan. Ashton leaves and I walk over to the mirror next to the door. With both hands I ruffle my hair a bit to dry it and comb it with my fingers up to my usual quiff. "Nope, of course my hair doesn't want to cooperate today" I say under my breathe. Leaving my hair alone I make sure my phone is in my back pocket and grab a sweatshirt. We haven't traveled a lot since it's only our first tour. Hell we aren't even playing any songs live yet. The managers say it's good to get around the world first and get the feeling in different places. But anyways, I put on my sweatshirt considering its fucking Antarctica outside, and head out the door.

I lock the hotel door and turn around only to be bumped by an inconsiderate person. "Hey whatch whe-" I pause.

Shit.

"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean it" she responds without me finishing my sentence. The girl scurries off down the hall thinking I'll beat her up.

I wouldn't have acted so rude if I looked up and knew that it was Zoe.

Zoe was a friend. A friend of Alexis's. I could tell she didn't notice me but I did and stopped. I panicked, what else was I supposed to do.
Memories flood back of Alexis and I and my wrists tingle. I can't do that again I promised the boys.

Wiping everything off from my mind at the moment, I make my way to the car. Calum is driving yet again what the fuck.

"Calum can I drive?" I complain.

"No Luke. Don't you think you need to rest and clear your mind a bit more. Plus wouldn't it bother your arms?" He states. Of course he's right. Ashton pats the seat next to him and I sit.

"Calum you can't drive". A bodyguard glares at him and tells him to sit in another seat on the bus.
"Hah ass" I say sticking my tongue out at Cal.
"Shut the fuck up Luke" he fires back.

This is going to be a long ride. I sigh and grab my headphones and listen to what our song sounds like so far.

It isn't long before we arrive at the building surprisingly. We all get out and head inside. Fuck my cuts really hurt today. I pull down my sleeves just incase any fans are here. Luckily we are in our room now and no fans have came up to us. Whenever I talk I stutter now and just cry. Nothing is the same, I'm fragile and weak I can't take it. All of the boys grab a stool and Mikey grabs his guitar and one for me. Ashton sits on his drum box and starts to find the beat to the song.

"We ready boys?" Calum says looking at all of us.

"Yup" Mikey replies making sure his instrument is tuned.

"1,2,3,4" Ashton counts.

Mikey and I start strumming our acoustic guitars and I start to sing.

"For a while we pretended that we never had to end it. But we knew that we had to say goodbye.
You were crying at the airport when they finally closed the plane door. I could barely hold it all inside.
Torn in two, and I know I shouldn't tell you but I just can't stop thinking of you... wherever you are"

I stop and Mikey stops his guitar too. Ashton looks up from his drum and pats my back.

"Luke you okay?" He says concerned.

Shit every fucking thing I do turns into a mess because of this one girl. Alexis will be the death of me I swear.

"Erm, yeah yeah I'm fine. Let's finish this so we can go" I say starting to strum at my guitar again.

The dreadful song ends and we pack our stuff. Well, I pack my guitar and the the rest of the guys leave their stuff here. A body guard leads us back to the car and he blocks us when he noticed a girl running our way. I quickly look to make sure my sleeves are down and fake smile at her.

"Oh my god! I love you guys so much I can't believe this is happening right now oh my god" she said between tears.

Do we really have die hard fans? We have only been announced in a little section of a magazine and we were on YouTube. Crazy how much one app can do. All of the boys including my self join in a group hug with the girl in the middle.

"You guys are amazing I can't wait till you guys are bigger and I get to see you in concert" she smiles and runs off.

"Wow. Crazy to think that we have fans already" Calum says.

We all nod and head on our way to the car.

The ride back was shorter because the lack of cars on the streets. Once we get inside I go straight to my bed and take a nap.

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Alexis's P.O.V~~~

Shit.

Thank you God, I say to myself as the light turns green. I speed off to the highway while I look in my rear-view mirror. Cameron is now behind me but is still catching up. Great.

I turn off the radio completely to concentrate on the road and pay attention to Cameron. Speeding up even more, I try to get away from this dickhead. I turn around to see that Cameron was catching up and was smiling. Tears in my eyes, I turn back around but just to be greeted by a truck coming straight towards me. I quickly try to regain my focus and step on the breaks. Instead of the breaks my foot slips and moves to the gas making me crash head on to the truck.

Black is all I see. Blood is all I taste. And a truck horn is all I hear before I blackout.

Hi guys. I'm sorry this is a little shorter than the first chapter but I will most likely update tomorrow. How do you guys like the cliffhanger ;)
Love you all!!! ~Katelyn